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Umndeni wami kanye nenhlangano

Ngakhulela kulokho okwaziwa ngokuthi “iqiniso” selokhu abazali bami baqala ukufunda noFakazi BakaJehova lapho ngineminyaka ecishe ibe mine ubudala ngasekupheleni kwawo-4. Ngaleso sikhathi, sasiwumndeni wabangu-1980, ngoba sasingabafowethu abane beminyaka engu-6, 4, 8 no-6 ngokulandelana (ekugcineni saba ngabazalwane abayi-4 yize oyedwa afa enezinyanga ezimbili zokuphila), futhi ngikhumbula kahle ukuthi sahlangana iHholo LoMbuso elalitholakala cishe emabhuloki angu-2 ukusuka endlini yami. Futhi njengoba sasiphansi ngokwezomnotho noma nini lapho siya emihlanganweni sonke sasihamba sonke. Ngiyakhumbula ukuthi kwakudingeka sidlule endaweni eyingozi kakhulu nasendaweni ephithizelayo ukuze siye emihlanganweni yethu. Kodwa-ke, asikaze siphuthe emhlanganweni, sihamba phakathi kwemvula enamandla noma siminyanisa ukushisa kwamasentimitha angu-8 ehlobo. Ngikukhumbula kahle lokho. Safika emhlanganweni simanzi te ukujuluka ngenxa yokushisa, kodwa sasikhona njalo emihlanganweni.

Umama wathuthuka futhi wabhapathizwa ngokushesha, futhi ngokushesha waqala ukuba iphayona elivamile lapho benesidingo sokuhlangabezana okungenani nesilinganiso samahora angama-90 omsebenzi obikiwe ngenyanga noma amahora ayi-1,000 3 ngonyaka, okusho ukuthi umama wami wasebenzisa isikhathi esiningi eshumayela kude nasekhaya. Ngakho-ke, zaba nezikhathi eziningi lapho esishiya mina nabafowethu abathathu sivaleleke sodwa endaweni enamakamelo ama-2, iholoholo nendlwana yokugezela amahora amaningi ngoba kwakumelwe aphume ayofeza ukuzibophezela kwakhe kuJehova.

Manje, ngibona ukuthi kwakungalungile ngomama ukuthi ashiye izingane ezi-4 zodwa zivaliwe, zivezwe izingozi eziningi futhi zingakwazi ukuphuma ziyocela usizo. Nami ngiyaqonda. Kepha yilokho umuntu ofundisiwe oholwa yile nhlangano ngenxa "yokuphuthuma kwezikhathi esiphila kuzo".

Mayelana nomama, ngingasho ukuthi iminyaka eminingi wayeyiphayona elivamile elikhuthele ngazo zonke izindlela: ephawula, eshumayela futhi eqhuba izifundo zeBhayibheli. Umndeni wami wawungumndeni ojwayelekile ngeminyaka yama-1980, lapho imfundo nokuqeqeshwa kwezingane kwenziwa ngumama; futhi owami wayehlale enesimilo esiqinile sokuvikela okwakubonakala kukuhle, futhi wakulandela ngentshiseko lokho okufundiswa yiBhayibheli. Futhi yilokho, ezikhathini eziningi, eziningi, okuholele ekutheni abizelwe ekamelweni B laseHholo LoMbuso ezokhuzwa ngabadala.

Yize besithobekile, umama wayehlala esiza lapho noma yiliphi ilungu lebandla lidinga ukwesekwa kwanoma yiluphi uhlobo futhi lokho kwakuyisizathu futhi sokuthi abizelwe ekamelweni B, ngokungawuhloniphi umyalo wobuholi nokungalindi ukuthi abadala bathathe izintambo. . Ngikhumbula ngesinye isikhathi ukuthi umzalwane othile wayebhekene nesimo esinzima futhi umama wayeshumayela eduzane kakhulu nendlu yomdala, futhi kwafika kuye ukuthi aye endlini yalomdala ayomazisa ngesimo. Ngiyakhumbula ukuthi kwakucishe kushaye ihora lesibili ngesikhathi engqongqoza emnyango wendlu yakhe umnyango waphendulwa unkosikazi womdala. Ngenkathi umama wami ecela unkosikazi ukuthi avunyelwe ukukhuluma nomyeni wakhe ngenxa yesimo esibi somunye umzalwane, impendulo yowesifazane omdala yathi, “Buya emuva dade, ngoba umyeni wami ulala kancane ngalesi sikhathi, futhi akafuni muntu ukumphazamisa. ”Angicabangi ukuthi abelusi beqiniso, okumele banakekele umhlambi, bangakhombisa ukungabi nandaba kangako ezimvwini zabo, lokho impela.

Umama waba yishisekeli elikhulu lenhlangano. Ngalezo zinsuku, umbono wokubukwa ngokuqondiswa ngokomzimba wawunganakwa yinhlangano, kepha wawuthathwa njengowemvelo futhi ngokwezinga elithile ubudingeka. Ngakho-ke, kwakuvame kakhulu ukuthi umama asishaye. Uma omunye umzalwane noma udade emtshela ukuthi besigijima eHholo, noma ukuthi besingaphandle kweHholo ngesikhathi somhlangano, noma ukuthi besiphushela othile singaqondile, noma uma nje besondela komunye wabafowethu ukuba sisho okuthile, noma sasihleka phakathi nomhlangano, wayesincinda izindlebe noma asidonse izinwele noma asiyise endlini yokugezela eHholo LoMbuso ukuze asishaye. Kwakungenandaba ukuthi siphambi kwabangani, abafowethu, noma ubani. Ngiyakhumbula ukuthi lapho sifunda “INcwadi Yami Yezindaba ZeBhayibheli”, umama wayehlala nathi phansi azungeze itafula, akhombise izandla zakhe etafuleni, abeke nebhande eceleni kwakhe etafuleni, futhi. Uma siphendule kabi noma sihleka noma singanaki, usishaya ezandleni zethu ngebhande. Ubuhlanya.

Angikwazi ukusola ukuthi konke lokhu kwakusenhlanganweni ngokuphelele, kodwa izihloko zaziphuma ku-Nqabayokulinda, i-Phaphama! noma izingqikimba ezivela ezinkulumweni zomfowethu ezazikhuthaza ukusetshenziswa “kwenduku” yokuyala, ukuthi lowo ongayali indodana yakhe akayithandi, njll.… kepha lezo zinhlobo zezinto okwakufundwa inhlangano ngaleso sikhathi kubazali.

Ezikhathini eziningi abadala babelisebenzisa kabi igunya labo. Ngiyakhumbula ukuthi lapho ngangineminyaka cishe eyi-12 ubudala, umama wami wangithuma ukuba ngigunde izinwele zami ngendlela, ngaleso sikhathi, eyayibizwa ngokuthi “igobolondo elisikiwe” noma “ukusikwa kwamakhowe”. Yebo, emhlanganweni wokuqala esihambele kuwo, abadala bathatha umama baya naye ekamelweni B ukumtshela ukuthi uma engashintshi ukugunda kwami ​​izinwele, ngingalahlekelwa yilungelo lokuba umphathi wemakrofoni, ngoba ukugunda izinwele zami kanjalo kwakuyimfashini, ngokusho komdala, nokuthi bekungadingeki ukuthi sibe yingxenye yomhlaba ezuza imfashini yomhlaba. Yize umama wami ayengacabangi ukuthi kunengqondo ngoba babungekho ubufakazi balokho okushiwo, wayekhathele ukukhuzwa kaninginingi, ngakho-ke wangigunda izinwele zaba mfushane kakhulu. Nami angizange ngivumelane nalokho, kodwa ngangineminyaka engu-12 ubudala. Yini engingayenza ngaphezu kokukhononda futhi ngithukuthele? Yini iphutha lami ukuthi abadala bakhuze umama?

Nokho, into eyihlazo kunakho konke ukuthi ngesonto kamuva le ndodana endala, eyayilingana nami, yeza eHholo igunde izinwele efanayo eyayingangenza ngilahlekelwe amalungelo ami. Ngokusobala, ukugunda izinwele kwakungasekho kwimfashini, ngoba wayengasebenzisa ukusika okufiselekayo. Akukho okwenzekile kuye noma kwilungelo lakhe lemakrofoni. Kuyabonakala ukuthi umdala walisebenzisa kabi igunya lakhe. Lolu hlobo lwento lwenzeke kaningi. Kubukeka sengathi engikutshele kuze kube manje yizinto ezingasho lutho, kepha bakhombisa izinga lokulawula abadala abalisebenzisayo empilweni yangasese nasezinqumweni zabafowethu.

Ubuntwana bami nobabafowethu kwakugxile kulokho ofakazi abakubiza ngokuthi "imisebenzi engokomoya" efana nemihlangano nokushumayela. (Ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, lapho abangane bethu bekhula, ngamunye ngamunye, basuswa ekuhlanganyeleni noma bahlukana.) Impilo yethu yonke yayigxile enhlanganweni. Sikhule sizwa ukuthi isiphetho sesiseduze; ukuthi ibivele isijikile ekhoneni; ukuthi lase lifinyelele emnyango; ukuthi bekuvele kungqongqoza emnyango — ukuphela bekuhlala kuza, ngakho-ke kungani sizofunda ngokwezwe uma ukuphela sekuzofika. Yilokhu umama ayekukholelwa.

Abafowethu ababili abadala baqeda isikole sokuqala. Lapho udadewethu eqeda, waba iphayona elivamile. Futhi umfowethu oneminyaka engu-13 waqala ukusebenza ukusiza umndeni. Lapho kufika isikhathi sokuthi ngiphothule esikoleni samabanga aphansi, umama wayengasenaso isiqiniseko sokuphila ezikhathini eziphuthumayo, ngakho-ke ngaba ngowokuqala ukufunda esikoleni samabanga aphakeme. (Ngasikhathi sinye, abafowethu ababili abadala banquma ukuqala ukufunda i-sekondari yize kubabezele umzamo omkhulu wokuyiqedela.) Ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, umama wami waba nabanye abantwana abangu-4 futhi bakhuliswa ngendlela ehlukile, ngaphandle kokudlulela izinhlawulo eziningi, kepha ngezingcindezi ezifanayo ezivela enhlanganweni. Ngingakhumbula izinto eziningi ezenzekile ebandleni — ukungabi nabulungisa nokusebenzisa kabi amandla kodwa ngifuna ukusho okukodwa.

Umfowethu omncane wayehlale enguFakazi KaJehova ongokomoya ngokuziphatha nangendlela yakhe. Lokhu kwamholela ekubeni esemncane ukuthi ahlanganyele emihlanganweni, abelane ngamava, enze imiboniso kanye nezingxoxo. Ngakho-ke, waba yinceku ekhonzayo esemncane eneminyaka engu-18 (into engajwayelekile, ngoba kwakudingeka ube yisibonelo esihle ebandleni elizobizwa uneminyaka eyi-19) futhi waqhubeka nokuthatha imithwalo yemfanelo ebandleni futhi wayifeza ngokuphelele.

Umfowethu waba nguyena ophethe indawo ye-Accounting ebandleni, futhi wayazi ukuthi kulo mnyango kufanele aqaphele kakhulu, ngoba noma iliphi iphutha lingaba nemiphumela kanye nokuchazwa okungalungile. Yebo, imiyalo ayenayo ukuthi njalo ezinyangeni ezi-2 umdala ohlukile kufanele abukeze ama-akhawunti; okungukuthi, abadala bekufanele bahambe bayobheka ukuthi konke kwenziwa ngendlela ehlelekile futhi uma kukhona izinto ezizothuthukisa, umbiko unikezwe umuntu ophethe ngendlela ebhaliwe.

Izinyanga ezimbili zokuqala zadlula futhi akekho umdala owacela ukubuyekeza ama-akhawunti. Lapho efika ezinyangeni ezi-4, akekho noyedwa oweza ukuzobuyekeza ama-akhawunti. Ngakho-ke, umfowethu wabuza umdala ukuthi bazobuyekeza ama-akhawunti futhi umdala wathi, "Yebo". Kepha isikhathi sihambile futhi akekho noyedwa obukeze ama-akhawunti, kwaze kwaba usuku lokumenyezelwa kokufika kombonisi wesifunda.

Ngosuku olwandulela ukuvakasha umfowethu wacelwa ukuba abukeze ama-akhawunti. Umfowethu ubatshele ukuthi lokho akubanga yinkinga futhi wabanikeza ifolda lapho abika khona konke okuhlobene nama-akhawunti wezinyanga eziyisithupha ezedlule. Ngosuku lokuqala lokuvakasha, umbonisi weSekethe wacela ukukhuluma nomfowethu ngasese futhi wamtshela ukuthi umsebenzi abewenza muhle kakhulu, kepha wathi uma abadala benza izincomo zokuthi izinto zithuthuke kanjani, kufanele azibambe ngokuzithoba. Umfowethu ubengakuzwisisi ukuthi ubekhuluma ngani, ngakho wambuza ukuthi usho ukuthini. Umphathi wesekethe uphendule wathi umfowethu kazange enze lushintsho abadala abaluhlongozayo ngokubhala kulezi zibuyekezo ezintathu abazenzile (abadala abagcinanga ngokuqamba amanga ngezinsuku lapho benza ukungenelela, baphinde baba nesibindi sokwenza izincomo zamanga zokuthi ubhuti ubengazi ngaye, ngoba abenzwanga lapho kufanele, bezama ukusola umfowethu nganoma yini iphutha elenzekile).

Umfowethu wachazela umbonisi wesekethe ukuthi abadala babemcelile ukuthi abukeze ama-akhawunti ngosuku olwedlule ngaphambi kokuhambela kwakhe nokuthi, uma ngabe ukubuyekezwa kwenziwe lapho bekufanele ngabe kwenziwa, ngabe wenza ushintsho oluphakanyisiwe, kepha akubanga njalo icala. Umphathi wesekethe umtshele ukuthi uzobatshela abadala lokhu futhi wabuza umfowethu ukuthi ngabe unenkinga yokuhlangana nabadala mayelana nokubuyekezwa okusolwayo. Umfowethu uphendule wathi akanankinga nalokhu. Ngemuva kwezinsuku ezimbalwa, umbonisi ojikelezayo watshela umfowethu ukuthi ukhulume nabadala futhi bavuma ukuthi abanaso isikhathi sokubukeza ama-akhawunti, nokuthi lokho okushiwo ngumfowethu kuyiqiniso. Ngakho-ke, bekungadingekile ukuthi umfowethu ahlangane nabadala.

Inyanga emva kwalokhu, kwenziwa kabusha isakhiwo ebandleni futhi umfowethu wavele wasuka lapho waba namalungelo amaningi ngasikhathi sinye njengama-akhawunti, ukuhlela ukushumayela, ukuphatha imishini yokusebenzisa umsindo, nokukhuluma kaningi endaweni yesikhulumi, ukuphatha imakrofoni kuphela. Ngaleso sikhathi, sonke sasizibuza ukuthi kwenzekeni.

Ngelinye ilanga sahamba nomfowethu sayodla ekhaya labanye abangane. Bese bemtshela ukuthi kufanele bakhulume naye, futhi asazi ukuthi kwakumayelana nani. Kodwa ngiyikhumbula kahle leyo nkulumo.

Bathi: “Uyazi ukuthi sikuthanda kakhulu, ngakho-ke siphoqelekile ukukutshela lokhu. Ngenyanga edlule nomkami, besisemnyango weHholo LoMbuso futhi silalele abadala ababili (wasitshela amagama, ngokuqondakalayo ukuthi kwakungabadala ababevela emibikweni yokubuyekeza kuma-akhawunti angakafinyelelwa) ababekhuluma mayelana nokuthi babehlangene ngani nawe. Asazi ukuthi ngasiphi isizathu, kepha bathi kufanele baqale, kancane kancane, bakususe emalungelweni ebandla, ukuze uqale ukuzizwa ushiywe wedwa futhi uwedwa, ngemuva kwalokho ukukukhipha emisebenzini yenkonzo . Asazi ukuthi kungani bekusho lokhu kodwa kubonakala ngathi akuyona le ndlela yokubhekana nanoma ngubani. Uma wenze okuthile okungalungile, kuzodingeka bakubize bakutshele ukuthi kungani bezokuthathela amalungelo akho. Lokhu akubonakali kuyindlela yobuKrestu yokwenza izinto ”.

Umfowethu wabe esebatshela ngesimo esenzekile nama-akhawunti.

Ngokwami, bengikuqonda ukuthi abayithandi ukuthi umfowethu azivikele ekuziphatheni okubi kwabadala. Iphutha lalingelabo, futhi esikhundleni sokuqaphela iphutha ngokuthobeka, bakha uzungu lokuqeda umuntu owenza lokho obekumele akwenze. Ngabe abadala basilandela isibonelo seNkosi uJesu? Ngokudabukisayo, cha.

Ngiphakamise ukuthi umfowethu akhulume noMbonisi weSekethe, ngoba uyasazi isimo, nokuthi uma kufika isikhathi, umfowethu asazi isizathu sokususwa kwakhe njengenceku ekhonzayo. Umfowethu ukhulume noMbonisi futhi wamtshela ngengxoxo leyo abadala ababenayo nabafowethu abezwile. Umbonisi umtshele ukuthi akakholelwa ukuthi abadala benze ngaleyo ndlela, kodwa ukuthi uzoxwaya ukuze akubone okwenzeka ekuhambeleni okulandelayo kwebandla. Ngokudabukisayo ukuthi utshele uMbusi ngalesi simo, umfowethu uyaqhubeka nokulandela izabelo ezimbalwa abamnika zona.

Njengoba isikhathi siqhubeka, bamabela ukuba anikeze izinkulumo ezimbalwa; babengamjwayele kangako ukuba aphendule emihlanganweni; wacindezelwa kakhulu. Ngokwesibonelo, babemgxeka ngoba abadala babengamboni emsebenzini wokushumayela ngeMigqibelo. (Umfowethu wayesebenza nami, kepha wayephuma ayoshumayela ngezikhathi zantambama eziningi phakathi nesonto. Kodwa ngeMigqibelo, kwakungeke kwenzeke ukuphuma siyoshumayela, ngoba iningi lamakhasimende ethu lalisekhaya ngeMigqibelo, futhi bathi bangasiqasha kuphela NgeMigqibelo.) Abadala babephuma bayoshumayela kule ndawo ngoMgqibelo nangeSonto, kodwa phakathi nesonto babebonakala ngokungabikho kwabo. Ngakho-ke, njengoba bengambonanga umfowethu ngeMigqibelo emsebenzini wokushumayela, futhi naphezu kombiko wakhe wenyanga ohlale ungaphezu kwamadijithi aphindwe kabili, futhi yize ebachazela isimo, babengenangqondo.

Empeleni, ezinyangeni ezimbili ngaphambi kokuhambela kombonisi, umfowethu waba nengozi ngesikhathi edlala ibhola, washaya ikhanda lakhe odongeni waqhekeka ugebhezi. Futhi, waba nesifo sohlangothi esidale ukulahleka kwememori okwesikhashana, i-photophobia, kanye ne-migraines. Kwaphela inyanga eyodwa engayi emihlanganweni,… inyanga lapho abadala babazi ngesimo (ngoba umama wayeqinisekisa ukuthi utshela abadala, ngamunye ngamunye, ngokwenzekile), kepha akekho noyedwa kubo owama umvakashele, kungabi esibhedlela noma ekhaya. Abazange bamshayele ucingo noma babhale ikhadi noma incwadi yesikhuthazo. Babengakaze babe nesithakazelo kuye. Lapho esekwazi ukuya emihlanganweni futhi, ukuphathwa yikhanda kanye ne-photophobia kwamenza ukuthi ashiye imihlangano ingakapheli.

Ukufika kombonisi wesifunda kwafika futhi abadala bacela ukususwa njengenceku ekhonzayo yomfowethu. Abadala ababili (nguyena owamakhela uzungu) noMbonisi bahlangana bamtshela ukuthi ngeke esaba yinceku ekhonzayo. Umfowethu akazange aqonde ukuthi kungani. Babemchazela nje ukuthi kungenxa yokuthi wayengenawo “amandla okukhuluma ngokukhululekile”, ngoba wayengaphumi ayoshumayela ngeMigqibelo, nangenxa yokuthi wayengayi njalo emihlanganweni. Yisiphi isibonelo okwakumelwe angene ngaso emsamo atshele abazalwane ukuthi baphume bayoshumayela futhi baye emihlanganweni uma kungenjalo? Bambuza ngokungagwegwesi lapho bekhuluma ngokungagunci futhi bengenakukhuluma ngokungagunci. Ngukuphi ukungagwegwesi abangakusho besendaweni yesikhulumi ukuthi kufanele bathobeke futhi babone amaphutha abo uma bengakwenzanga ngokwabo? Bangakhuluma kanjani ngothando kubazalwane uma bengalukhombisi? Bangakhuthaza kanjani ibandla ukuthi lingabi nobulungiswa uma kungenjalo? Bangabatshela kanjani abanye ukuthi kufanele sibe abacabangelayo uma kungenjalo? Kuzwakale njengehlaya.

Wabachazela futhi ukuthi uma bengamboni emsebenzini wokushumayela ngeMigqibelo, yingoba wayesebenza, kodwa wayeshumayela phakathi nesonto ntambama. Futhi, ukuthi wayengakwazi ukuya emihlanganweni njalo ngenxa yengozi bona ngokwabo ababazi ngayo. Noma imuphi umuntu onengqondo uzoqonda isimo. Ngaphandle kwalokhu, umbonisi wesifunda, owayekhona futhi ekanye nabo, wayazi kahle kamhlophe ukuthi lesi akusona isizathu sangempela sokususwa kwakhe. Okwamangaza umfowethu ukuthi i-CO ibasekela abadala futhi yancoma ukuthi basuswe. Ngosuku olulandelayo, i-CO yacela ukuphuma iyoshumayela nomfowethu futhi yachaza ukuthi yayisazi isizathu sangempela sokuthi kungani abadala bancoma ukuthi kususwe, okwakwenzekile ekuhambeleni kwangaphambilini, kodwa ukuthi yayingenakuphikisana nabadala. (Ngokwami ​​ngicabanga ukuthi akenzanga lutho ngoba wayengafuni. Wayenegunya.) Watshela umfowethu ukuthi akuthathe njengesipiliyoni, nokuthi ngokuzayo lapho esemdala, uzokhumbula lokho abadala abakwenzile kuye, nokuthi uzohleka, futhi njengoba sisho njalo, "Shiya izinto ezandleni zikaJehova."

Ngosuku lwesimemezelo, bonke abazalwane (ibandla lonke ngaphandle kwabadala) ababazi kahle ukuthi isimo sasingalungile kanjani, beza kumfowethu bezomtshela ukuthi ehlise umoya, ukuthi bayazi ukuthi kwenzekeni ngempela. Leso senzo sothando sabazalwane samshiya enonembeza omsulwa ukuthi konke okwakwenzekile kungenxa yokuthi wenza okulungile emehlweni kaJehova.

Ngokwami, ngacasuka lapho ngithola ngalokhu — ukuthi abadala, "abelusi abanothando abafuna okuhle njalo emhlambini", bangazenza kanjani lezi zinto futhi bangajeziswa? Kungenzeka kanjani ukuthi umbonisi ojikelezayo, onomthwalo wokubona ukuthi abadala benza okufanele, futhi azi isimo, angenzi lutho ukuvikela olungileyo, ukwenza ubulungiswa bukaJehova bunqobe, akhombise wonke umuntu ukuthi akekho ngaphezu kukaNkulunkulu izindinganiso zokulunga? Kungenzeka kanjani lokhu phakathi “kwabantu bakaNkulunkulu”? Okubi kakhulu kunakho konke ukuthi kwathi lapho abanye abantu bakwamanye amabandla bethola ukuthi umfowethu akaseyona inceku ekhonzayo futhi wabuza abadala, batshela abanye ukuthi yingoba wayedlala imidlalo yevidiyo enobudlova, abanye bathi yingoba umfowethu wayengumlutha wezithombe zobulili ezingcolile nokuthi umfowethu wayenqabile "usizo ababemnikeza lona". Amanga oVile aqanjwe ngabadala! Lapho sazi ukuthi ukususwa kufanele kusingathwe ngokuyimfihlo. Kuthiwani ngothando nokunamathela ezinkambisweni zenhlangano okwakufanele abadala bazikhombise? Lokhu bekuyinto ethinte kakhulu umbono wami maqondana nenhlangano.

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