Mukutsvaga Baba

[Akaundi yako, yakapihwa naJim Mac]

Ndinofunga kuti panofanira kunge kwaiva kupera kwezhizha ra1962, Telstar by the Tornadoes yanga ichirira paredhiyo. Ndakapedza mazuva echirimo paIdyllic Island yeBute pamhenderekedzo yegungwa yokumadokero yeScotland. Taiva neimba yekumaruwa. Yakanga isina pombi dzemvura kana magetsi. Basa rangu raiva rekuzadza zvigubhu zvemvura kubva mutsime revanhu vose. Mhou dzaiswedera pedyo dzodongorera. Mhuru diki dzaibva dzavhozhokera kuti dzione kumberi.

Manheru, taigara pedyo nemarambi eparafini uye taiteerera nyaya uye taidya makeke akanga achangobva kugadzirwa akagezeswa nemagirazi maduku e-sweet stout. Marambi acho akaita kuti ruzha rwunyerere ndokuita kuti munhu anzwe hope. Ndakarara ipapo pamubhedha wangu ndakatarisa nyeredzi dzichibuda nepahwindo; mumwe nomumwe wavo uye ini ndakazadzwa nepfungwa yokushamiswa mumwoyo mangu sezvo muchadenga chaipinda mukamuri mangu.

Ndangariro dzouduku dzakadai dzaindishanyira kakawanda uye dzaindiyeuchidza nezvokuziva kwangu zvinhu zvomudzimu kubvira ndichiri muduku, kunyange zvazvo ndiri mwana.

Ndakarwadziwa kuziva kuti ndiani akasika nyeredzi, mwedzi, uye chitsuwa chakanaka chaive chinhambwe kubva kuGlasgow's Clydeside apo varume vasina basa vaingomira mumakona emigwagwa kunge mavara epaLoury pendi. Ikoko dzimba dzepashure pehondo dzakavharira chiedza chepanyama. Uko imbwa dzine urombo dzainhonga mumabhini kuti dziwane zvimedu. Kwazvairatidzika nguva dzose, kwakanga kune nzvimbo dziri nani dzokurerwa. Asi, tinodzidza kubata neruoko hupenyu hwatiinahwo.

Zvinosuruvarisa kuti, baba vangu vakavhara maziso avo pandakasvitsa makore gumi nemaviri; nguva yakaoma kune wechidiki ari kukura pasina kuvapo kwerudo, asi ruoko rwakasimba. Amai vangu vakava chidhakwa, saka mune zvakawanda, ndaiva ndoga.

Mamwe masikati eSvondo gare gare, ndakanga ndakagara ndichiverenga rimwe bhuku rakanyorwa nomumongi weTibet—ndinofungidzira kuti yakanga iri nzira yangu yokusaziva yokutsvaka chinangwa choupenyu. Pagonhi pakabva pagogodzwa. Handiyeuki sumo yomurume wacho, asi akaverenga 2 Timoti 3:1-5 aine dambudziko rokutaura rinorwadza. Ndakaremekedza ushingi hwake sezvaainanaira seari kurabhi ari kuverenga Mishnah sezvaaitsvanzvadzira kuti abudise mashoko acho. Ndakamuti adzoke svondo raitevera ndichigadzirira bvunzo.

Zvisinei, mashoko iwayo aakaverenga akanzwika munzeve dzangu vhiki rose. Mumwe munhu akambondibvunza kuti pane hunhu here muzvinyorwa, ndingazvifananidza naye? Prince Myshkin kubva kuDostoevsky's Idiot,ndakapindura. Myshkin, protagonist waDostoevsky, akanzwa akaparadzaniswa kubva kunyika yake yezana remakore rechigumi nemapfumbamwe uye akanga asinganzwisisi uye ari oga.

Saka, pandakanzwa mashoko a2 Timotio 3 , Mwari wechisiko chapose pose akandipindura mubvunzo wandakanga ndichitsvangadzira, wokuti, nei nyika iri nenzira iyi?

Vhiki rakatevera racho hama yacho yakaunza mumwe wavakuru, mutariri anotungamirira. Chidzidzo chakatangwa Chokwadi Chinotungamira kuHupenyu Husingaperi. Pashure pemavhiki maviri, mutariri anotungamirira akauya nemumwe mutariri wedunhu ainzi Bob, aimbova mumishinari. Ndinoyeuka masikati iwayo mune zvose. Bob akatora chigaro chetafura yekudyira ndokuchigadzika nechekumberi, akaisa maoko ake kumusana ndokuti, 'Zvakanaka, une mibvunzo ipi neipi pamusoro pezvawadzidza kusvika zvino?'

'Chaizvoizvo, pane imwe inondinetsa. Kudai Adhamu aiva noupenyu husingaperi, zvakadini kana akagumburwa ndokuwira pamawere?'

'Ngatitarisei Pisarema 91:10-12 ,' Bob akapindura kudaro.

“Nokuti acharayira vatumwa vake pamusoro pako kuti vakuchengete panzira dzako dzose.

vachakusimudza mumaoko avo, kuti urege kugumbusa rutsoka rwako pabwe.

Bob akapfuurira nokutaura kuti uhwu hwakanga huri uporofita pamusoro paJesu asi akarangarira kuti hwaigona kushanda kuna Adhama uye, kupfurikidza nokuwedzera, mhuri yose yavanhu iyo yakawana paradhiso.

Gare gare, imwe hama yakandiudza mumwe munhu akabvunza Bob mubvunzo usina kujairika wokuti: 'Kana Amagedhoni ikauya, zvakadini nevachadenga vari muchadenga?'

Bob akapindura naObadiah vhesi 4,

            “Kunyange ukabhururuka segondo ukavaka dendere rako munyeredzi;

            kubva ipapo ndichakuburusa,” ndizvo zvinotaura Jehovha.

Mapinduriro aiita Bhaibheri mibvunzo iyi akandiorora. Ndakatengeswa kusangano. Ndakazobhabhatidzwa kwapera mwedzi mipfumbamwe muna September 1979.

Unogona kubvunza mibvunzo, asi kwete kubvunza mhinduro

Zvisinei, mwedzi mitanhatu kana kuti kupfuura gare gare, chimwe chinhu chakandinetsa. Takanga tiine ‘vakazodzwa’ vashoma vakanga varipo, uye ndainetseka kuti nei vasina kumbobatsirawo pa‘zvokudya zvomudzimu’ zvataigamuchira. Nyaya dzese dzataiverenga dzainge dzisinei nevekuzviti ava Kirasi Yomuranda Akatendeka. Izvi ndakazvitaura nemumwe wevakuru. Haana kumbondipa mhinduro inogutsa, kungoti dzimwe nguva vaya veboka iroro vanopota vachitumira mibvunzo uye vachibatsirawo munyaya dzimwe nguva. Ndakaona kuti izvi hazvina kuenderana nemuenzaniso wakataurwa naJesu. Aya aifanira kunge ari pamberi pane kuti 'occasional' chinyorwa. Asi handina kumboita nyaya. Kunyanguvezvo, vhiki gare gare, ndakazviwana ndimene ndichiiswa chiratidzo.

Shoko rakanga rakajeka, pinda mumutsetse. Chii chandaigona kuita? Iri sangano raiva nemashoko oupenyu husingaperi, kana kuti zvaiita sokuti. Kumakwa kwacho kwaiva kwehutsinye uye kusina chikonzero. Handizivi kuti chii chainyanya kundirwadza, kumaka kana kuti ndakatarisa mukoma uyu sababa vakavimbika. Ndakanga ndava ndega zvakare.

Kunyange zvakadaro, ndakazvipedza simba ndikatsunga mumwoyo mangu kufambira mberi kuva mushumiri anoshumira uye pakupedzisira mukuru. Vana vangu pavakakura ndokusiya chikoro, ndakapayona.

Musha wePotemkin

Nepo nyaya zhinji dzedzidziso dzakaramba dzichindinetsa, chimwe chikamu chesangano chakandinetsa chaive, uye kushaikwa kwerudo. Dzaisava nyaya hombe, dzinoshamisa, asi nyaya dzemazuva ose dzakaita semakuhwa, makuhwa uye vakuru vanoputsa zvakavanzika nekuita mapillow-talk nevakadzi vavo. Paive neruzivo rwenyaya dzekutonga dzaifanira kungoitwa kumakomiti chete asi dzakabuda pachena. Ndaiwanzofunga nezvetapuro iyo 'kusakwana' uku kwaizova nayo pavanyajambwa vokusangwarira kwakadaro. Ndinoyeuka ndichipinda gungano muEurope uye ndichitaura neimwe hanzvadzi. Pashure pacho, imwe hama yakasvika ndokuti, 'hanzvadzi iya yamakataura nayo kuti ihure.' Ndaisafanira kuziva izvozvo. Zvichida aiedza kurarama zvakapfuura pasi.

Pamisangano yavakuru pakanga pane masimba masimba, kuzvitutumadza, kukakavadzana nguva dzose, uye kusaremekedzwa kwomudzimu waMwari kwaitsvakwa pamavambo omusangano.

Zvakandinetsawo kuti vechidiki vaizokurudzirwa kubhabhatidzwa vaine makore gumi nematatu vozosarudza gare gare kuenda kunodyara oats yavo yemusango vozviwana vadzingwa, vogara kumashure vachimirira kudzorerwa. Izvi zvakanga zvakasiyana zvikuru neMufananidzo woMwanakomana Akarasika ane baba vakamuona ‘ari kure’ uye vakaronga kupemberera nokukudza mwanakomana wake akanga apfidza.

Asi zvakadaro, sesangano, takatambanuka nezverudo rwakasiyana rwataiva narwo. Yaiva yese musha wePotemkin usina kumboratidza chimiro chechokwadi chezvaiitika.

Ndinotenda kuti vazhinji vanopengenuka kana vasangana nekushungurudzika uye neniwo ndakaitawo saizvozvo. Muna 2009, ndaipa hurukuro yavose muungano yaiva pedyo. Mudzimai wangu paakabuda muhoro, akanzwa kuda kudonha.

'Handei kuchipatara,' ndakadaro.

'Aiwa usazvinetse, ndoda kumborara.'

'Aiwa, ndapota, handei,' ndakasimbirira.

Mushure mekunyatsoongorora, chiremba wechidiki akamutumira kuCT scan, uye akadzoka nemigumisiro. Akasimbisa kutya kwangu kukuru. Raive bundu muuropi. Muchokwadi, mushure mekuongororazve, aive nemamota akati wandei, kusanganisira kenza mu lymph gland.

Mamwe manheru pandakamushanyira muchipatara, zvakava pachena kuti akanga achidzikira. Ndapedza kushanya ndakabva ndapinda mumota kunozivisa mai vake. Kwakanaya sinou yakawanda muScotland vhiki iyoyo, ndaiva ini ndoga mutyairi mumugwagwa. Pakarepo mota yakabva yapera simba. Mafuta akapera. Ndakafonera kambani yerelay, musikana ndokundiudza kuti havaendi nyaya dzemafuta. Ndakafonera hama yangu kuti ibatsire.

Maminitsi mashoma gare gare mumwe murume akamira kumashure kwangu ndokuti, 'Ndakuona uri kune rimwe divi, unoda rubatsiro here?' Maziso angu akazara misodzi nekuda kwetsitsi dzemutorwa uyu. Akanga aita rwendo rwemakiromita gumi nemaviri kuenda nokudzoka kuti auye kuzobatsira. Pane nguva muhupenyu dzinotamba mumisoro yedu. Vanhu vatisingazivi vatinosangana navo, kunyange kwenguva duku, asi hatimbovakanganwi. Husiku hushoma mushure mekusangana uku, mudzimai wangu akashaya. Yakanga iri Kukadzi 12.

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Pazuva rokutanga, ndakasangana neimwe hanzvadzi yaibva kuchamhembe kwePhilippines uye pashure pegungano takadya pamwe chete. Takaramba tichionana, uye ndaifamba kakawanda kunomushanyira. Panguva iyoyo, hurumende yeUK yakanga ichipasisa mutemo waizorambidza vanhu vanobva kune dzimwe nyika uye kurambidza vagari veku UK kwemakore gumi; taifanira kufamba nekukurumidza kana sisi ava vaizova mukadzi wangu. Saka, musi waZvita 25, 2012, mudzimai wangu mutsva akasvika uye akapiwa hugari hwemuUK munguva pfupi yapfuura.

Yaifanira kunge iri nguva inofadza, asi takakurumidza kuona zvakasiyana. Zvapupu zvakawanda zvaisava nebasa nesu, kunyanya ini. Pasinei ne Awake ine chinyorwa panguva iyoyo chaitsigira chokwadi chekuti varume vanoroora nekukurumidza kupfuura vakadzi mushure mekufirwa, hazvina kumbobatsira. Zvakava zvinoodza mwoyo kupinda misangano uye mamwe manheru apo mudzimai wangu akanga achigadzirira nokuda kwomusangano weChina, ndakamuudza kuti ndakanga ndisiri kudzokera. Akabvuma ndokuendawo.

Buda Nzira

Takasarudza kuverenga Evhangeri uye Bhuku raMabasa uye takanyatsozvibvunza kuti, Mwari naJesu vanodei kwatiri? Izvi zvakaunza pfungwa huru yerusununguko. Kwemakumi matatu emakore apfuura, ndanga ndichitenderera sechamupupuri Dervish uye ndisingambofungi nezvekuburuka. Paizove nenzendo dzemhosva kana ndikagara ndichiona bhaisikopo kana kuenda kunotandara kwezuva rose. Pasina kufudza kana hurukuro uye zvinhu zvekugadzirira, ndaiva nenguva yekuverenga shoko raMwari ndakazvimirira pasina pesvedzero yekunze. Zvainzwa zvichizorodza.

Asi panguva iyi, runyerekupe rwakapararira rwokuti ndakanga ndakaramba kutenda. Kuti ndakaroora chokwadi. Kuti ndakasangana nemudzimai wangu pane webhusaiti yeRussia mwenga uye zvichingodaro. Apo mumwe munhu anosiya Zvapupu, zvikurukuru kana ari mukuru kana kuti hama yavakarangarira kuva yomudzimu, kusawirirana kunotanga. Ivo vangavamba kusava nechokwadi nezvavanotenda kana kuti kutsvaka nzira yokuzviruramisa nayo mumisoro yavo chikonzero nei hama yacho yakaenda. Chekupedzisira vanozviita nokushandisa mamwe matauriro akadai sokusaita basa, asina simba, asiri emweya, kana kuramba kutenda. Ndiyo nzira yavo yekuchengetedza nheyo dzavo dzisina kusimba.

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Ndinowanzosuruvariswa pandinoona zvaichimbova Zvapupu zvaJehovha zvichiwira mukusadavira kuvapo kwaMwari uye zvichitora basa razvino uno romunyika yokuMadokero mukusada zvenyika. Mwari akatipa ropafadzo yokuva vakasununguka kuzvisarudzira. Hakusi kusarudza kwokuchenjera kupa Mwari mhosva nokuda kwemafambiro akaita zvinhu. Bhaibheri rakazara nenyevero pamusoro pekuvimba nevanhu. Pasinei nokuenda, tose tichiri pasi penyaya yakamutswa naSatani. Kuvimbika kuna Mwari naKristu here, kana kuti mutsigiri wepanyika waSatani uyo parizvino ari kutsvaira Madokero?

Kuisa pfungwa patsva kwakakosha paunobva. Zvino ndiwe woga une denho yokuzvidyisa umene mumudzimu nokuumba chiziviso chitsva. Ndakazvipira kusangano rinopa rubatsiro kuUK rainyanya kufonera vanhu vakura, vasingabudi pamba uye kutaura navo kwenguva refu. Ndakadzidzawo BA in Humanities (English Literature and Creative Writing). Zvakare, COVID payakasvika ndakaita MA muKunyora Kunyora. Sezvineiwo, imwe yehurukuro dzekupedzisira dzegungano redunhu dzandakapa yaiva pamusoro pedzidzo yokuwedzera. Ndinonzwa ndichifanira kuti 'ndine urombo' kuhanzvadzi yechiduku yechiFrench yandakataura nayo zuva iroro. Panofanira kunge maiva nekudedera mumwoyo make pandakamubvunza zvaaiita kuScotland. Akadzidza kuGlasgow University.

Ikozvino, ini ndinoshandisa hunyanzvi hwekunyora hwandakapiwa naMwari hwandakawana kubatsira vanhu kupinda mudivi ravo remweya nekubhuroga. Iniwo ndiri munhu anokwira makomo uye ndinowanzo namata ndisati ndatarisa mamiriro. Nenzira isingadzivisiki, Mwari naJesu vanotumira vanhu nzira yangu. Izvi zvese zvinobatsira kuzadza nzvimbo isina chinhu yandakasiya Nharireyomurindi. Tiina Jehovha naKristu muupenyu hwedu, hatimbofi takanzwa tiri toga.

Makore gumi nematatu zvichienda mberi, handinetseki nezvekuenda. Ndinofunga nezvevaGidheoni nevaNinivhi kunyange zvazvo vakanga vasiri rutivi rwesangano revaIsraeri, vakagamuchira ngoni norudo rwaMwari. Paiva nemurume ari muna Ruka chitsauko 9 akadzinga madhimoni muzita raJesu uye vaapostora vakaramba nekuti akanga asiri weboka ravo.

'Musamudzivisa,' Jesu akapindura kudaro, 'nokuti usingapesani nemi ndowenyu.'

Mumwe munhu akambotaura, kuti kusiya sangano kwakanga kwakafanana nokusiya Hotel California, unogona kuita kubuda kwako, asi usambofa wakasiya. Asi ini handienderani nazvo. Pakave nekuverenga nekuferefeta kwakawanda kupfungwa dzenhema dzaitsigira dzidziso nemitemo yesangano. Izvozvo zvakatora nguva. Zvinyorwa zvaRay Franz naJames Penton, pamwe chete neruzivo rwaBarbara Anderson pamusoro pesangano, zvakabvumikisa kuva zvinobetsera zvikurusa. Asi kupfuura zvese, kungoverenga Testamente Itsva kunoburitsa imwe kubva mukudzora pfungwa kwakambonditonga. Ndinotenda kurasikirwa kukuru ndiko kuzivikanwa kwedu. Uye saMyshkin, tinozviwana tiri munyika yevatorwa. Zvisinei, Bhaibheri rakazara nevanhu vakashanda mumamiriro ezvinhu akafanana.

Ndinoonga hama dzakakwevera ngwariro yangu kuMagwaro. Ndinotendawo hupenyu hwakapfuma hwandave nahwo. Ndakapa hurukuro muPhilippines, Rome, Sweden, Norway, Poland, Germany, London uye kureba noupamhi hweScotland, kubatanidza zvitsuwa zviri mumhenderekedzo yegungwa yokumadokero. Ndakafarikanyawo Kokorodzano Dzemarudzi Akawanda muEdinburgh, Berlin, uye Paris. Asi, kana chidzitiro chasimudzwa uye chimiro chechokwadi chesangano chikaziviswa, hapana kurarama nenhema; zvakava zvinonetsa. Asi kuenda kwakafanana nedutu reAtlantic, tinonzwa kuputsikirwa nechikepe, asi muka munzvimbo iri nani.

Zvino, mudzimai wangu neni tinonzwa ruoko runonyaradza rwaMwari naJesu muupenyu hwedu. Munguva ichangopfuura, ndakamboongororwa nachiremba. Ndainge ndave neappointment yekunoona consultant for the results. Takaverenga rugwaro mangwanani iwayo sezvatinoita mangwanani oga oga. Mapisarema 91:1,2, XNUMX:

Uyo agere panzvimbo yokuvanda yeWekumusoro-soro;

ndichagara mumumvuri wowaMasimbaose.

Ndichati kuna Jehovha, “Ndimi utiziro hwangu nenhare yangu;

Mwari wangu, wandinovimba naye.'

Ndakati kumudzimai wangu, 'tichanzwa mashoko akaipa nhasi.' Akabvuma. Mwari aigara achitipa mashoko kuburikidza neMagwaro akananga. Mwari vanoramba vachitaura sezvaagara achitaura, asi dzimwe nguva, vhesi rechokwadi rinogara mumakumbo edu kana richidikanwa.

Uye chokwadi zvakakwana, masero muprostate akandishandira akatendeka, akachinja hutsinye uye akagadzira kumukira murwatata nechiropa uye ndiani anoziva kumwe kumwe.

Chipangamazano akaburitsa izvi, akanditarisa ndokuti, 'Une hushingi pamusoro peizvi.'

Ndakapindura kuti, 'Zvakafanana neizvi, mune rimwe jaya riri mandiri. Akanditevera muupenyu hwake hwose. Zera rake handirizivi, asi anogara aripo. Anondinyaradza uye kuvapo kwake kunoita kuti ndive nechokwadi chokuti Mwari ane tariro yokusingagumi nokuda kwangu,’ ndakapindura kudaro. Chokwadi ndechokuti Mwari 'akaisa zvisingagumi mumwoyo yedu.' Kuvapo kwemudiki ini kunogutsa.

Takasvika kumba zuva iroro ndokuverenga Pisarema rechi91 rose uye takanyaradzwa zvikuru. Ini handina manzwiro ezvinonzi maGerman torchlusspanik, kuziva kuti magonhi ari kundivharira. Aiwa, ndinomuka nokunzwa kunoshamisa kworugare runobva kuna Mwari naKristu bedzi.

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