Zochitika za Alithia

Moni nonse. Nditawerenga zokumana nazo za Ava ndikulimbikitsidwa, ndimaganiza kuti inenso ndichita chimodzimodzi, ndikuyembekeza kuti wina wowerenga zanga angawone kufanana. Ndikukhulupirira pali ambiri kunjaku omwe adadzifunsa funsoli. “Ndingakhale bwanji wopusa chonchi? Monga mwambiwu umati, "Vuto logawanika ndilo vuto lachepetsa." 1 Petro 5: 9 akuti, "Koma mumtsutseni, mulimbike m'chikhulupiriro, podziwa kuti masautso amtundu womwewo akukumana ndi gulu lonse la abale padziko lapansi."

Gawo langa lapadziko lapansi lili kuno ku Australia; malo omangidwa panyanja. Ndisanapereke chidule cha zomwe ndakumana nazo monga wobadwira mu "Choonadi", ndikufuna kugawana nawo zomwe ndidaphunzira ndili mkulu zomwe zidandithandiza kumvetsetsa zakukhudzika komwe mumakumana nako mukazindikira kuti mwakhala mukunyengedwa kwazaka zambiri, mwina kwazaka zambiri monganso ine. Apa ndiye poti chinyengo chimakwaniritsidwa ndi chowonadi.

Ndili mkulu, ndinkafuna kudziwa zambiri zamatenda amisala, chifukwa zikuwoneka kuti pali abale ndi alongo ambiri omwe akudandaula mosiyanasiyana. Posafuna kuweruza anzawo kapena kuchita zinthu mosazindikira, komanso kuti ndizitha kumvetsetsa chisoni ndi omwe akhudzidwa, ndinawerenga mabuku angapo pamutuwu kuchokera pashelefu la buku lodzithandiza.

M'buku limodzi, ndinawerenga za bambo wina yemwe adadwala matenda amisala omwe amadziwika kuti Bi-Polar Disorder. Adanenanso momwe iwo omwe ali ndi vuto lotere nthawi zambiri amakhala opanga komanso omvera, monga oimba, ojambula komanso olemba. Adalongosola momwe anthu awa nthawi zambiri amapangira luso akakhala m'mbali mwa zenizeni. Kumverera komwe amakumananso ali mdziko lino ndikumverera kwakukulu kwachisangalalo. Mkhalidwe uwu wokhala wokopa kwambiri. Nthawi zambiri amadzimva kuti ali m'manja mwawo, choncho musamamwe mankhwala awo monga momwe adanenera. Izi zimabweretsa chizolowezi chonyenga, mpaka pomwe amafunika kuletsedwa ndikupatsidwa mankhwala mokakamizidwa. Komabe, mankhwalawa amachepetsa mphamvu zawo ndikuwapangitsa kuti azimva ngati zombizi, zokhoza kugwira ntchito mwakuthupi, koma osati mwanjira zopangira zomwe zimawapangitsa kumva momwe angafunire.

Panthawi ina, bambo uyu adasimba zomwe anakumana nazo pamene amakumana ndi malingaliro onyenga omwe amabwera ndi Bi-Polar Disorder. Patsikulo, adapezeka akuthamanga mumisewu ali maliseche, akufuulira aliyense kuti dziko lapansi likugonjetsedwa ndi alendo osautsa. Anati mlengalenga unasweka ndikuwamva kuti wapatsidwa magetsi, komanso kuti amamva ngati pulaneti yapamwamba yopulumutsa dziko lapansi kwa alendo omwe akubwera. Mosalephera, adadziletsa ndikuwapatsa mankhwala oyenera.

Amakumbukiranso kutsika kwakukulu komwe adamva pomwe zenizeni zidabwerera. Komabe, bambo uyu adati akutha kukumbukira bwino lomwe chisangalalo chachikulu, ndikuwakumbukira mwakufuna kwawo. Umu ndimo momwe analiri weniweni kwa iye panthawiyo. Anati malingaliro amenewo, ngakhale ndi achinyengo, amakopa, ndipo amawakumbukira nthawi zambiri chifukwa chakumupangitsa kuti amve bwino.

Zaka zingapo pambuyo pake tsopano, ndimakumbukira nkhaniyi ndi mantha, monga ndikudzifotokozera ndekha, popeza tsopano ndadzutsidwa kuyambira zaka zambiri ndanyengedwa ndi ziphunzitso zonyenga. Ndiwofika kokasangalala kwambiri chifukwa chodziona kuti ndiopadera nthawi zonse. Ndinali m'modzi mwa anthu ochepa omwe adasankhidwa kuyimira Yehova ndikuchenjeza oyipa nyumba ndi nyumba za chiwonongeko chomwe chikubwera. Ndinali kutumikira monga mkulu wamwayi ndi Gulu la Yehova Padziko Lapansi; chipembedzo choona chokha. Ndinali ndikudzilemekeza, ngakhale ndikunamizira, ndikudzilemekeza komanso ulemu kwa iwo omwe anali pafupi nane mu Gulu. Ndinkadzimva kuti ndikulimbana ndi mavuto komanso kusatsimikizika kwadzikoli, ndikukumana ndi moyo ngati wina wapamwamba. Umu ndi momwe timapangidwira kumva mu Gulu.

Kwa ine osachepera, "kudzuka" kwanga kumamveka ngati kukankhidwa m'matumbo ndi bulu! Ndidakhala ngati munthu wovutika ndi zinyengo ndipo tsopano akukana mankhwala omwe amafunikira. Mwauzimu ndi m'maganizo, ndinkakankha ndi kukuwa ndipo ndinkamenyana mwankhanza. Koma zenizeni zinali zamphamvu kuposa zonyenga zomwe pamapeto pake zidasanduka nthunzi. Mapeto ake, ndinatsala nditaima pamenepo ndikuganiza, "Tsopano?"

Mosiyana ndi bambo amene ndimamufotokozera pamwambapa, ndidavala zovala zamunthu. Koma mofanananso, nditazindikira zonse, panali zinthu zambiri zomwe ndimaganiziranso zakumbuyo, kudziimba mlandu komanso malingaliro ena olakwika chifukwa chonyengedwa. Ndimathanso kuyang'ana m'mbuyo ndikusangalala ndi chisangalalo chachikulu cha "nthawi zabwino", ngakhale ndi ochepa kwambiri. Ndikakumbukira chifukwa chake zinthu zidachitika momwe zimachitikira, ndidazindikira kukula kwake ndi zakuya kwa chinyengo cha satana m'njira yomwe sindingamvetsetse.

"Satana wachititsa khungu malingaliro a osakhulupirira", atero Paulo kwa Akorinto. (2 Akorinto 4: 4) Inde ngakhale anthufe timaganiza kuti ndife anzeru bwanji, timalimbana ndi zolengedwa zapamwamba za anthu; zolengedwa zauzimu zomwe zimatiposa kwambiri m'njira zambiri. Tsopano ndimatha kuwona chowonadi chenicheni chomwe chafotokozedwera Aefeso:

"Chifukwa chake khalani olimba, mutamangirira lamba wa chowonadi m'chiuno mwanu, mutavala chapachifuwa chachilungamo," (Aefeso 6: 14)

Nditadzuka, ndinapezeka kuti ndili ndi JW “lamba wa choonadi” wopanda maziko, komanso “mathalauza auzimu” ozungulira maondo anga. Zochititsa manyazi kwambiri komanso zochititsa manyazi!

Kuyesera kumvetsetsa zokumana nazo zanga komanso kuti ndisamve ngati chithunthu, ndinayamba kuganizira njira zosiyanasiyana zomwe anthu amapusitsira en masse ndi satana. Pa nkhondo yachiwiri yapadziko lonse, omenyera nkhondo achi Japan ambiri adalolera kupereka moyo wawo kwa Emperor, omwe adaphunzitsidwa kuti amakhulupirira mulungu. Ndikukumbukira kuti ndinawerenga nkhani yomwe Nsanja ya Olonda za munthu ameneyu yemwe adakhala JW ndipo amakumbukira kumva Emperor akutsutsa umulungu wake pawailesi ngati chikhalidwe cha Japan kudzipereka kwa Allies. Anati kukhumudwa kwake sikungafotokozedwe; ndi momwe anamvera mumtima mwake. Makamaka poganizira zomwe adachita, ndipo anali wokonzeka kuchita chifukwa cha chikhulupiriro ichi! Anayamba maphunziro oyendetsa ndege za Kamikaze, wofunitsitsa kudzipha pazifukwa zake. Ngakhale iwo omwe amakana kukhulupirira Mulungu samamasulidwa kuzinyenga zawo. Mwachitsanzo, anthu mamiliyoni ambiri amakhulupirira chiphunzitso chakuti zamoyo zinachita kusanduka kuchokera ku zinthu zina. Ena amene anaphunzitsidwa kuti kumenyera Mulungu ndi Boma ndi zinthu zolemekezeka, kumenyedwa pankhondo zowopsa zosafunikira, kutaya okondedwa awo ambiri. Chifukwa chake, ndimayesetsa kukhala wanzeru zazinthu zina kuti ndisadzimve kukhala woponderezedwa makamaka chifukwa chokhala wa Mboni za Yehova.

Mwa njira, ndidakali wovomerezeka, ndiye ndikhulupilira kuti simundisamala? Ndikuganiza kuti pali kuwuka kofananako komwe kumachitika tsiku lililonse. Nthawi zambiri, wosakhulupirirayo samadzuka kuti adziwe za Bungweli, koma amaganiza kuti ndichizindikiro cha kukhulupirika kubwerera kwa wokhulupirira mpaka kusiya yemwe amati amamukonda kwambiri .

Pali zokhumudwitsa zochuluka kwambiri zomwe zikuchitika kotero kuti sichingakhale chanzeru kuzinena.

Koma inde, comedown ndi wamkulu, pakati pa oyipitsitsa; palibe funso pa izi! Ndipo zokumana nazo zoyipa kulikonse komwe zimachokera zikufunika kukambirana ndi kuthana nazo, ndi malingaliro, ngati zingatheke, ndikupanga mandimu ochokera ku mandimu owawa. (Ndimu zovunda…. Mandimu owola .... Ndi mandimu owola ... Matimu owola, masamba osapindulitsa, opanda msuzi ndi mphutsi.) Inde, ndikadapwetekedwa, chabwino!

Nditanena zonse kuti pali zinthu zambiri zomwe ndingayamikire chifukwa chokhala wa JW, monga kukulitsa chikondi cha Baibulo komanso kukhala paubwenzi ndi Mulungu ndi Yesu, zomwe mwina sizikadachitika, ndikadapanda umboni . Mwa malingaliro a filosofi, chifukwa cha "kudzutsa", ndazindikira choonadi cha Baibulo mwanjira yomwe sindikadatha kuzichita kale. Mwachitsanzo, mawu a Yesu pa Mateyo 7: 7 pomwe adati, "Pemphanibe ndipo adzakupatsani; pitilizani kufunafuna ndipo mudzapeza; Gogodanibe, adzakutsegulirani. ”

M'mbuyomu, monga ena ambiri, ndimaganiza kuti izi ndizophunzira za choonadi Buku ndi angapo zofalitsa, ndikuyesera kuti osagona pamisonkhano. Tsopano, ndazindikira kugogoda uku ndi kufunsa kuyenera kukhala ntchito yayitali, yamphamvu!

Komanso, monga JW, gawo la malembo opezeka pa Miyambo 2: 4— “Pitirizani kufunafuna nzeru ngati chuma chobisika” —lifotokozedwa mwanjira yothandiza, monga kuyesetsa kuyang'ana pa laibulale ya JW pakompyuta yanu pamwamba! Ngati ndiko kuyesetsa konse kuti munthu apeze nzeru zopatsa moyo ndiye kuti fanizo la m'Baibulo lakusaka chuma chakuthupi liyenera kuchititsa kuti tigwiritse ntchito nthawi ndi khama lofananira kuti tipeze phiri lagolide lopangitsa aliyense kukhala zillionaire mosavuta! Tonsefe timadziwa ngakhale kuyesetsa kofunikira kuti tipeze chuma chenicheni. Ndaphunzira kuti pali kuyesayesa kokulirapo kuti ndipeze chuma chenicheni chauzimu. Ponena za maphunziro auzimu, a JW amanyadira kudziwa kwawo chowonadi. Monga m'modzi wa Mboni za Yehova, mudzazindikira "mutadzuka" posachedwa kuti "mwayang'aniridwa ngati khanda lomwe likusambira padziwe lakumbuyo kuseri kwa amayi atavala matumba auzimu". Chowonadi ndichakuti simungathe kusambira nokha m'madzi akuya a chowonadi. Ambiri amanyansidwa kuti achite izi mobwerezabwereza, kuti aphunzire zabodza ndikuphunzira chowonadi chenicheni. Ndinamvanso kunyansidwa pachiyambi nanenso. Zinandidwalitsa m'mimba, koma ziyenera kuchitika. Kuti mukhale omasuka ndi zakale, monga Yesu adanenera, khalani ndi chowonadi chomwe chidzakumasuleni. (Yohane 8:32) Izi zimaphatikizapo kumasuka ku mkwiyo, mkwiyo, ndi mkwiyo womwe munthu amakhala nawo chifukwa cha zokumana nazo zakale zogwiritsa ntchito nthawi yayitali komanso khama pazinthu zopanda pake.

Popeza ndakhazikitsa kusokonekera kwanga mu njira zingapo, tsopano ndinena nkhani yanga momwe ndidadzukirira limodzi ndi mkazi wanga ndi ana awiri akulu.

Kudzuka Kwanga

Kukula ku Australia kumapeto kwa makumi asanu ndi makumi asanu ndi limodzi mphambu makumi asanu ndi limodzi ngati wachinyamata wa JW pasukulu anali ndi zovuta zake. Nkhondo yachiwiri yapadziko lonse inali yatsopano m'maganizo mwa aliyense ndipo ambiri anali atataya okondedwa awo pankhondoyi. Zikuwoneka kuti pafupifupi aliyense anali ndi wina m'banjamo yemwe anakhudzidwa kwambiri. Kalelo, anthu ankaloledwa kumenya ana awo m'sukulu, monga ndodo, lamba, ndi kumenya mbama m'makutu. Mawu oti, "olondola andale" anali asanapangidwebe. Muyenera kukhala olondola! Kukhala JW sikunali kolondola. Izi zitha kuwoneka kuti zitha kukonzedwa ndi kulangidwa.

Lolemba lililonse m'mawa kusukulu aliyense anali kusonkhana ndipo nyimbo yafuko imaseweredwa, ndipo aliyense amachitira sawatcha mbendera. Zowonadi, ambiri a ife — mozungulira 5 kapena 6 omwe anali a JWs, monga momwe 3 Hebre, Shadrach Meshach ndi Abednego sakanatero. Mwakaneneratu, mphunzitsi wamkuluyo angatinyoze, kutinyoza kuti ndife olakwira dziko lathu, amantha ndikupangitsa kuti tiyime pambali, pafupi ndi sukulu yonse. Kenako pitilizani zankhanza izi kenako kutiuza kuti mu ofesi yathu tivule! Mapemphero athu adayankhidwa mpaka kanthawi pang'ono, timangokhala ndi mizere kapena mindandanda ngati zilango. Panali masiku obadwa masiku onse, zikondwerero za tchuthi zomwe zimakumanabe ndi achinyamata aumboni kusukulu masiku ano. Zikuwoneka zoseketsa tsopano, koma mukangokhala ndi 5 mpaka 10 wazaka, zinali zovuta kwambiri kupirira.

Misonkhano panthawiyo inali yotopetsa; zomwe zinali zikuwonetsedweratu ndi mitundu ndi mitundu yotsutsa. Mafunso omwe anali ochulukirapo pazomwe mtundu uwu kapena wakale umayimira, chonsecho chimapindulira moyo wamunthu aliyense kukhala wopanda zero! Nsanja ya Olonda kuphunzira amayenera kukhala ola limodzi. Inakonzedweratu ndi Nkhani Yapagulu yotenga ola limodzi, yopuma mphindi ziwiri pakati pa awiriwo, kuti ena azituluka ndikusuta. Inde, kusuta kunaloledwabe panthawiyo.

Kusunga nthawi sikunali kovuta m'masiku amenewo ndipo nthawi zambiri oyankhula ndi otsogolera ankapita nthawi yokwanira mphindi 10-20! Chifukwa chake msonkhano ukhoza kukhala pafupifupi maola 3 osachepera. Pakati pa zaka 10 mpaka 15, pokhala wofunitsitsa kudziwa zambiri, zomwe ndimakonda pamisonkhano ndikutuluka mchipindamo ndikulowa mulaibulale yazipinda zakumbuyo pulogalamuyo ndikutsanulira zakale "Mafunso Ochokera kwa Owerenga". Pazifukwa zina, ndinkasangalala nazo. Pokhala mwana wachichepere, chidwi changa chimaphatikizaponso kuyang'ana pamitu yomwe inali kupezeka ndikulembedwa mu index ya Watchtower, monga kugonana, kugonana, chiwerewere, maliseche ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndi zina zotero. Kuchokera ku "kafukufuku" uyu ndidakumana ndi zododometsa zomwe sindimatha kuyanjananso nazo mpaka patadutsa zaka 40. Ngakhale ndinali wachichepere kwambiri, zidandidabwitsa kuti malingaliro amitu yofunika kwambiriyi asintha mwachangu, ndi zomwe zikadakhala za anthu ambiri, zotsatira zoyipa pamoyo wawo. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinawerengapo za kugonana m'kamwa m'banja. (Pa nthawiyo sindinali wotsimikiza kwathunthu kuti izi zikutanthauza chiyani) Nsanja ya Olonda anati alongo omwe ali ndi amuna akudziko omwe amalimbikira kuchita mchitidwewu amathanso kuletsa amuna awo pazifukwa zachiwerewere monga momwe Watchtower Society imafotokozera panthawiyo. Posachedwa kwambiri, ndinali kuwerenganso zidziwitso kuti izi zachotsedwa ndipo izi sizinali zifukwa zomveka zothetsera banja. Alongo omwe adasudzula amuna awo adauzidwa kuti ngati achita chikumbumtima chabwino sayenera kumva kuti ali ndi mlandu uliwonse! Chomwe chinandikhumudwitsa kwambiri panthawiyo chinali mawu akuti "ena anali kuganiza molakwika" asanapite kukasintha boma. Ndimakumbukirabe nthawi ndi malo, ndipo ndinadabwitsidwa kwambiri nditawerenga izi koyamba! Komabe, ndimayenera kuwona kusowa kwachiwonekere kwa kusasamala kwazomwe adadzetsa m'miyoyo ya anthu; kulephera kotenga umwini uliwonse kapena udindo wa zolakwitsa zazikulu, zolembera; kusowa kwa kupepesa kwamtundu uliwonse; mobwerezabwereza, mobwerezabwereza, m'malo ambiri m'moyo wa JW.

Kupita patsogolo ku 70s, ndidatsimikiza mtima "kupanga chowonadi kukhala changa" pophunzira mokwanira choonadi buku. Ndinabatizidwa pa October 10^th 1975. Ndikukumbukira nditakhala pagulu la ofuna kubatizidwa ndikuganiza momwe ndimamvera chisoni. Ndinkayembekezera kuthamanga kwachisangalalo komwe wokambayo amafotokoza, koma ndimangokhutira ndikulimbikitsidwa kuti mapeto anali asanafike, ndisanabatizidwe ndikupulumutsidwa! Tsopano ndinali wokonzeka kuti anthu mabiliyoni ambiri amwalire kuti tikhoze kumanganso dziko lapansi ndikusintha kukhala "Kingdom Planet". Panthawiyo zonse zinali ufumu, kuphatikizapo "Kingdom smile" yotchuka yomwe mungauze JW kuchokera kutali kapena pagulu la anthu. Ndimakhulupiriradi m'mbuyomu, a JW anali anthu osangalala komanso achikondi. (Uyenera kukhalapo.) Adamwetuliradi, zomwe simukuziwona lero. Komabe popeza ndakhala ndikudutsa muvuto ladziko lonse lapansi la 1975, ndingachitire umboni kuti panali zambiri zomwe zidanenedwa zakumapeto kukhala mu 1975. Ambiri adagulitsa ndikuchita upainiya, ambiri adasiya maphunziro awo kuyunivesite, ndipo ena adayimitsa miyoyo yawo chifukwa panali zambiri Kulimbikitsidwa kuchokera papulatifomu komanso pamisonkhano kumapeto kumapeto kwa 1975. Aliyense amene anena mosiyana sanakhalepo nthawi imeneyo kapena akunamizira. Sindinakhudzidwe kwambiri ndi izi popeza ndinali ndi zaka 18 zokha panthawiyo. Koma ndiyenera kukuwuzani, iwalani zakumapeto kukubwera posachedwa, zaka 40 zosamvetseka zapitazo mapeto anali pafupi kwambiri kuposa kale lonse! Ndipamene mapeto anali akubweradi! Ndimaseka kumene.

Kupitilira zaka za m'ma 80, ndinali ndi zaka 20 ndipo ndidakwatira mlongo wabwino ndipo tidasamuka ku Melbourne kupita ku Sydney ndikudzipereka ku chowonadi. Tidachita bwino kwambiri. Mkazi wanga anachita upainiya wanthawi zonse ndipo ine ndinali mtumiki wothandiza ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 25. Zaka za m'ma 80 zinali nthawi yopambana kwa Mbonizi pomwe pulogalamu yowonjezera inali itayamba kale ndipo nkhaniyo inali yoti "wamng'ono akukhala chikwi". Chifukwa chake tonse tinali kukonzekera nkhondo yamkuntho yomwe mwina sichingakhale. Tinalibe ana kwa zaka 10, chifukwa sitinkafuna kukhala ndi ana omwe amakulira m'dongosolo loipa la zinthu lomwe likatsala pang'ono kutenthedwa ndi moto. Kumayambiriro kwa zaka za m'ma 80 panali msonkhano wokhudzana ndi kubereka ana. Pulogalamuyi idalongosola za ana a Noah ndi Baibulo kuti sanawajambule kuti ali ndi ana chifukwa chofulumira kwa ntchito yomanga Likasa. Izi tidauzidwa kuti zidapangidwa ndi mamangidwe ndipo Malemba amatiuza china chake chomwe tikufunika kutengera zisankho zathu m'moyo. Pambuyo pazaka pafupifupi 10 komabe, tidawona kuti tayandikira kwambiri kutha kwa dongosolo lino kuti tikhale ndi ana, chifukwa sangakule m'dongosolo momwe angathere posachedwa. Zinali pafupi. Mapeto anali pafupi! Ana anga awiri tsopano akukhala m'dongosolo loipali kwa zaka 27 ndipo 24 motsatana.

Tsopano tikusunthira mu 90s kenako 21^st Zaka zana.

Monga mtumiki wothandiza, ndipo nditakhala mkulu, ndinali kulumikizana ndi ma CO, akulu ndi antchito ena. Ndimafunitsitsa nditumikire Yehova ndi abale ndi alongo anga mwachangu komanso ndi mtima wanga wonse ndi malingaliro ndi moyo wanga wonse. Koma zomwe zimapangitsa kuti ndiyimitse ndikufunsa inali chinyengo chodziwikiratu cha mizati yambiri ya mpingo. Ndinayamba kuwona zizolowezi zazing'ono zomwe zimandivuta kuti ndizilungamitse. Ndinkawoneka kuti ndimasinthasintha ndikupanga zifukwa kuti ndikhale mwamtendere uliwonse. Panali nsanje yayikulu; kunyada, kunyada, ulemu, komanso zolakwika zauzimu zambiri zomwe ndimaganiza kuti siziyenera kupezeka mwa akulu kapena antchito. Ndinayamba kuwona kuti kuti ndizipanga kukhala m'Bungwe, sizinali zauzimu zambiri, koma umunthu womwe umayamikiridwa. Zotanthauza, ngati simunayesedwe wowopsa kwa akulu ndipo mukuwoneka kuti mukutsatira ndimalingaliro a bungwe, ndipo simunafunse mafunso kapena kuyenda ndi zonse ngati bambo wabwino wakale ndikumayanja akulu onse pazomwe amachita ndi Purezidenti ku North Korea, ndiye kuti mumapita kukapita. Zinkawoneka kwa ine ngati “kalabu ya anyamata”.

Zomwe ndidakumana nazo ngati mkulu komanso zomwe ndapeza m'mipingo yonse zosiyanasiyana ndikuti, mu bungwe lililonse la akulu pafupifupi 10, nthawi zonse pamakhala m'modzi m'modzi kapena akulu akulu omwe malingaliro awo nthawi zonse amakhala olamulira. Pafupifupi 6 amuna "inde" kwa akulu akuluwo - akufotokozera malingaliro awo omvera potsogozedwa ndi kudzichepetsa komanso kufunika kokhala ogwirizana! Pomaliza, panali mkulu m'modzi kapena awiri okhazikika omwe amachita zamantha m'malo mokangana. Ndidakumana ndi akulu ochepa omwe anali ndi umphumphu nthawi yonse yomwe ndimakhala m'modzi.

Ndikukumbukira nthawi ina kukambirana nkhani zofunika ndi mkulu wamantha ngati ameneyu, ndipo ndidafunsa chifukwa chomwe sangavotere zomwe amadziwa, ndikuvomera mwamseri, ndichinthu choyenera kuchita. Anamuyankha mosabisa, osadandaula, "Mukudziwa ndikachita izi mwina nditha kumaliza ntchito!" Kuda nkhawa kwake sikunali koona komanso chilungamo. Udindo wake monga mkulu kwa iye unali wofunika kwambiri kuposa zosowa za abale mu mpingo omwe amayenera kuweta!

Kupereka chitsanzo china cha izi, nthawi ina panali zokambirana zambiri pakati pa akulu akulu za mkulu m'modzi yemwe, chifukwa chazikhalidwe zoyipa zachikhristu, amalingaliridwa kuti achotsedwa. Zinthu zidatsimikizika. Aliyense adavomereza kuti mokomera mpingo, malingaliro akuyenera kuperekedwa kwa a CO paulendo wake wotsatira. Usiku wa zokambiranazi, zikuwoneka kuti pali zovuta pakati pa akulu ena olimbikitsidwa ndi akulu akulu asanakumane ndi CO kuti tisapereke lingaliro. Pamsonkhano ndi CO pomwe nkhaniyi idabwera mkulu aliyense adafunsidwa ndi CO zomwe amaganiza. Ndinakhala pafupi kwambiri ndi CO usiku womwewo ndipo panali akulu ena 8 omwe analipo panthawiyo. Mmodzi ndi m'modzi adafotokozera zabwino za mkulu yemwe akukambidwayo ndikuwonetsa kuti akuyenera kupitiliza udindo wake ngati mkulu. Ndinakhala pamenepo nditathedwa nzeru ndi kumbuyo, komwe kunalibe umboni kapena chifukwa chake. Panalibe kusamala komanso kuganizira zokambirana kapena pemphero. Zonse zidafika mwamwayi komanso mwachangu komanso mokakamiza, panjira pomwe aliyense anali kusefa mchipinda chochezeramo. Komabe, m'modzi m'modzi, ndimamvera mkulu aliyense kuti afotokoze mwanjira yomwe ndimadziwa kuti imatsutsana ndi zomwe amakhulupirira, ndipo zowonadi zake zinali zoona. Momwe zimafika nthawi yanga, ndimapanikizika kwambiri kuti nditsatire monga momwe maso onse anali pa ine. Komabe ndinawafotokozera momwe ndimawaonera. CO idasokonezeka pakusiyana kwa malingaliro anga ndi zomwe ena onse anali kunena. Chifukwa cha ndemanga zanga ndi za a CO, adapempha kuti azungulire chipinda kachiwiri. Nthawi ino, pakangodutsa mphindi imodzi kapena ziwiri, m'modzi m'modzi mkulu aliyense adafotokoza nkhaniyi mosiyana ndikumaliza mosiyana! Ndinadabwa kwambiri osakhulupirira! Ndinawawona anyamata awa akuyatsa kobiri! Kodi awa ndi ndani omwe ndimaganiza? Chilungamo chili kuti? Mitengo ikuluikulu yachilungamo? Pogona ku mphepo yamkuntho ndi mphepo kwa gulu la nkhosa! Anzeru ndi ozindikira? Wauzimu ndi okhwima? Ndipo choyipitsitsa aliyense amawoneka osatekeseka. Palibe amene amawoneka akuganiza za izi! Kuphatikiza CO!

Tsoka ilo, ichi chinali chokumana nacho changa mobwerezabwereza-misonkhano ya akulu yowonetsa malingaliro a anthu ndikuwonetsa zokonda zawo kuposa chidwi chenicheni pagulu. Ndidaona izi pamipingo yambiri pazaka zambiri. Sizinali, zomwe ena angaganize, chochitika chokha. Ndale, umunthu, masewera angapo - koma osati zauzimu - zimawoneka kuti ndizomwe zimatsogolera pamisonkhanoyi. Pamsonkhano wina wa akulu kuti akambirane zosintha munthawi zamisonkhano, nthawi yowonera TV ya Dr Who idaganiziridwa kuti isasemphane ndi misonkhano! Nkhani yochitika!!

Izi zidandikhudza kwambiri, chifukwa nkhani yodziwika ndiyakuti titha kukhulupirira akulu ndi zisankho zomwe amapanga; kuti atsogozedwa ndi Mzimu Woyera ndipo ngati zikuwoneka kuti pali zovuta zina, sitiyenera kuda nkhawa, koma tingokhulupirira zomwe zakonzedwa. Lingaliro lomwe likuperekedwa ndikuti mipingo ili "mwamphamvu m'dzanja lamanja la Yesu", monga Chibvumbulutso chimanenera. Chiwonetsero chilichonse chokhudzidwa, kufunitsitsa kudandaula kapena kukonza zinthu, kumawerengedwa ngati kusakhulupirira mphamvu ya Yesu komanso kuthekera kwake kuwongolera Mpingo wake Wachikhristu! Ndinasiyidwa ndikudabwa kuti ndimatani ndikuwona zomwe zimachitika.

Zotsatira zake, kudzera mu 90s ndi 2000s, chifukwa cha ntchito nthawi zambiri tinkasuntha malo athu omwe amatanthauza kuti tinkapezeka m'mipingo yambiri. Izi zidandipatsa mwayi wokhala ndi malingaliro apadera ndikutha kusanthula mabungwe akulu, ndi mamembala m'mipingo yonseyi. Posakhalitsa ndidazindikira kuti kapangidwe ka matupi akulu, komanso mamembala amumpingo uliwonse anali ofanana modabwitsa. Izi mosakayika ndi zotsatira zakukakamira kwa "umodzi" momwe bungwe limanenera, koma ndimayang'ananso zotsatira zonse za "Feeding Program" ndi zotsatira zake zomwe zimayenera kukhala "Zauzimu Za Paradisozi" zomwe ziyenera kukhala zitachitika. Ndidayerekezera izi motsutsana ndi nkhani yomwe akuwoneka kuti aliyense akusangalala nayo. Tinkakumbutsidwa mosalekeza kuti ndife anthu osangalala kwambiri Padziko Lapansi; tinali chipembedzo choyera kwambiri; sitinali onyenga; tinali ndi chilungamo; ife tinali nawo akulu; tinali maziko a Ufumu wa Mulungu padziko lapansi; tinali ife tokha amene timasonyeza chikondi chenicheni; ife tinali nacho chowonadi; tinali ndi banja losangalala; tinali ndi moyo waphindu komanso watanthauzo.

Zomwe zinkandidetsa nkhawa ndikuti zikuwoneka kuti ngati kompyuta, zikuwoneka ngati pali mapulogalamu awiri omwe amapikisana nthawi imodzi. Nkhani yabwinoyi siyofanana ndi zomwe zidachitikadi, ndikuwombera kwakanthawi!

Nthawi zambiri, ndinkayima kumbuyo kwa holo mkati mwa msonkhano kapena ndikamachita "ntchito zaunsembe" monga kugwiritsa ntchito maikolofoni, ndipo ndimayang'ana pansi pamipata ndikudutsa m'mizere ndikuyang'ana miyoyo ya aliyense payekha komanso banja , pomwe panali imodzi, motsutsana ndi malembo komanso motsutsana ndi omwe amadziwika kuti ndi munthu wosangalala. Zomwe ndapeza ndikuti mofananamo, kapena makamaka makamaka, padziko lonse lapansi - ndidawona chisudzulo, maukwati osasangalala, mabanja osweka, kulera bwino ana, nkhanza zaunyamata, kukhumudwa, matenda amisala, matenda obwera chifukwa chodwala, matenda amisala kupsinjika ndi nkhawa, monga chifuwa chachikulu, kusalolera zakudya, kusadziwa malembo, ophunzira, komanso moyo wamba. Ndinawona anthu opanda zokonda zawo, zosangalatsa kapena zina zathanzi. Ndidaona kuchereza kwathunthu, kulumikizana kopanda tanthauzo monga gulu la okhulupirira kunja kwa zochitika monga misonkhano ndi ntchito yolalikira. Mwauzimu, kupatula kuyankha mwanjira iliyonse pachinthu chilichonse chokhudzana ndi bungwe, kunkawoneka kuti pali malingaliro osazama kwambiri ndikuwonetsa Chikondi chachikhristu ndi Zipatso zina za Mzimu zomwe zimapanga munthu wauzimu. Chinthu chokha chimene chinkawoneka kuti chinali chofunika chinali kulalikira khomo ndi khomo. Uku kunali kuyerekezera komwe munthu angadzitanthauzire yekha ndi ena kuti ndi Mkhristu weniweni, ndipo omwe adalimbikira ntchitoyi amawonedwa kuti ndiwokhazikika komanso okonzeka bwino ndipo ali ndi mikhalidwe yonse yachikhristu mosatengera zowona zenizeni. Kuchokera pazomwe tafotokozazi ndimatha kuwona kuti pulogalamu yoperewera yodyetsa mwauzimu inali pachimake pa nkhaniyi komanso vuto lenileni la vuto la abale anzanga.

Kutenga zokumana nazo zanga zonse m'choonadi, ndidapeza kuti ndidazindikira molakwika kwambiri kuti ndimayeserera ndikuwunika zomwe zidali kuchitika mu Bungwe kwa ine ndi banja langa, komanso kuyankha moyenera ku ena omwe angadandaule za ine zomwezi. Ndinkayamba kuchita manyazi kudziyesa Mboni za Yehova. Nthawi zambiri ndimaganiza, momwe mdziko lapansi aliyense angakhalire otsimikiza kuti akhale mgulu la anthuwa ndikuganiza kuti atha kudzipindulitsa kapena banja lawo, kuchokera ku zomwe zimawoneka mosavuta?

Kuti ndisataye mtima ndikusintha zinthu zokhudzana ndi chizindikiritso cha Chikristu choona chomwe ndi chikondi, ndipo chifukwa cha kusoweka kwake konseko, ndidapanga tanthauzo langa lenileni kuti ndifanane ndi zomwe ndidakumana nazo. Ndiye kuti, chikondi ndichinthu chophunzitsidwa bwino chomwe chimawonetsedwa kwambiri m'ziphunzitso zowona zomwe zimabweretsa moyo wosatha. Ndinaganiza kuti ku New World, zophophonya zonse ndi kusowa kwachikondi kwakanthawi zikawonetsedwa. Okhulupirira kuti malo okhawo achikondi chokhacho omwe angapezeke ndi pakati pa Mboni za Yehova. Bungwe si gulu locheza kwa iwo omwe amafuna gulu lokonda anthu; M'malo mwake ndi malo pomwe wina amafunika kubwera kuti adzaonetse ena chikondi, koma osati kuyembekezera kuchokera kwa ena. Kutsata kukhala kwa munthu aliyense kuti awonetse mkhalidwewu kwa ena mopanda dyera monga Yesu, yemwe kuyesayesa kwake sikunali kuyamikiridwa nthawi zonse.

Pambuyo pake nditatha kuwona zochulukira, ndidasowa kukonzanso tanthauzo langa la zomwe Yesu adawafotokozera ngati chikondi cha Christion, kuti: mutha kubwera kumisonkhano, khalani pansi ndikusangalala ndi pulogalamuyi osadandaula kuti mpeni udzakhomeredwa kumbuyo kwanu! Monga m'dziko lina lachiarabu kapena lachiafirika lomwe likumenya nkhondo! Nditamenyedwa pamsonkhano wa akulu ndi mkulu wina pamaso pa anthu ena, ndinakhalanso ndi chifukwa chobwerezera izi.

Zowoneka kuti, zauzimu ndinali kuthamangira pachabe, ndinali nditatha zifukwa ndi zodzikhulikira zikhalidwe, ziphunzitso, ndi zizolowezi zambiri mu Gulu, zomwe zimawoneka kuti zikuchulukirachulukira. Ine ndinali kumapeto kwa wazanga wanga, ndipo ndimayang'ana mayankho, koma sindinadziwe komwe ndingawapeze kapena ngati angapezeke. Mapemphero anga kwa Yehova anali oona mtima ngati ophunzira omwe amapemphera kuti Peter akhale ndi moyo wabwino pomwe amangidwa. (Machitidwe 12: 5) Chifukwa chake Peter anali kumangidwa, koma osampingo anali kumpempedzera ndi mtima wonse kwa Mulungu. Ine ndi mkazi wanga kuphatikiza ana athu awiri abwino amafunsa nthawi zonse, "Kodi ndi ife kapena ndi iwo? Kodi ndi ife kapena ndi amenewo? ”Pomaliza tinazindikira kuti ndi ife, zomwe zinali mwatsoka m'njira zina chifukwa sitinali oyeneranso koma osatinso kwina. Tinkasungulumwa.

Kenako kuno ku Australia nkhani yayikulu yamatikiti inabwera pa TV. Australia Royal Commission kukhala m'malo ozunza ana. Uku ndi kuwombera komwe kudapangitsa kuti zinthu ziziyenda bwino komanso kubweretsa kusintha kwamphamvu kwa zinthu, ndipo ndimatha kupeza tanthauzo komanso kumvetsetsa zonse zomwe zikundidetsa nkhawa.

Ndisanadziwe bwino za Royal Commission, mkulu wina pa pulatifomu adatseka msonkhano ndikupempha Mulungu ndi aliyense omvera kuti athandizire ndikupereka thandizo kwa Bungwe Lolamulira komanso akulu omwe akuzunzidwa ndi Royal Commission. Ndidafunsa mkuluyo kuti izi zikutanthauza chiyani, ndipo adandiyankha mwachidule momwe Royal Commission idazunza abale mwanthawi zabodza komanso mafunso osayenera. Sindinawerengepo kanthu mpaka nditangoona china chake pa TV chokhudza izi. Ndatsegula You Tube kuti muwone kuyankhulana kwaposachedwa kwaposachedwa kwa JW. Ndipo mwana! Kuwona m'bale Jackson, ena mwa atsogoleri a nthambi, ndi akulu onse omwe anachitapo misonkhano yamakomiti am'mbuyomu, amalimba ndikunama kudzera mano awo; Kuwaona akusokonekera, kuchita zinthu zopanda nzeru; kukana kuyankha kapena kugwirira ntchito limodzi; ndipo koposa zonse kuti tisapepese kapena kuvomereza zovuta zoyambitsidwa ndi ndondomeko ndi njira zosayenera zinali zochuluka! Ndi chotseguka chotani nanga m'maso chongonena zochepa! Pa mndandanda wazinthu zina zofunika kuwonera m'mbali panali a Ray Franz yemwe anali membala wa Bungwe Lolamulira la JWs ndipo ena onse ndi mbiri yakale. ndinawerenga Vuto la Chikumbumtima osachepera 3 nthawi; Kufunafuna Ufulu Wachikristu Nthawi za 3; Ogwidwa ndi Lingaliro pafupifupi nthawi za 3; Kuphatikiza Kulamulira Maganizo Achipembedzo; Mabuku a Carls: Zizindikiro za Nthawi ndi Nthawi za Akunja Zidayambiranso; adawonera makanema onse a Frank Trueks ndi Ravi Zacarias YouTube; mudadya zambiri pa Restitutio.org komanso zambiri kuchokera http://21stcr.org/ ndi JWFacts.com

Momwe mungaganizire, ndakhala maola mazana osawerengeka ndikugwiritsa ntchito chidziwitso chonse pamwambapa. Nditayamba kukumba kwambiri ndinayamba kudzidulira nthawi iliyonse yophunzirira yosayankhula ya JW ikagundika zinyalala.

Kuphatikiza apo, ndinaponda mawebusayiti ambiri a JW omwe amanditsutsa ndikundikhumudwitsa ndikawona kuwonongeka komwe kunabweretsa ambiri omwe miyoyo yawo komanso chikhulupiriro chawo chasweka chifukwa cha JW.ORG. Ndinali munthu paulendo wopita ku chowonadi. Pambuyo poyendera masamba ambiri ndapeza iyi yomwe imandilimbikitsa kwambiri. Ndizolimbikitsidwa kuwona ena omwe ngakhale atavutika kwambiri akadali ndi chikondi chokwanira pa Mulungu ndi Yesu kufuna kuyesa kuti nyali zawo ziunikire paphiri. Chifukwa chake, nditha kuthokoza aliyense pano chifukwa chothandizira malo opumulirawo, chifukwa andithandiza kwambiri. Ndi tsamba limodzi lomwe nditha kulimbikitsa mochokera pansi pamtima kwa okhulupilira, wakale wa JW ndi apo ayi omwe akufunika kuthandizidwa komanso kulimbikitsidwa achikhristu kuti apitilizebe paulendo wachikhristu. Ndipo ndikungofuna nonse kuti mudziwe momwe ndimayamikirira ndemanga zanu zonse zolimbikitsa komanso zabwino. Izi sizikutanthauza kuti tili ndi zochulukirapo zomwe titha kuchita mutatha kuthawira ku "Mapiri a Pella" ndikudandaula zamtsogolo. Koma ndikhulupirira Yehova ndi mbuye wathu Yesu kuti atibweretsere izi.

 

Kukonda kwachikhristu kwa onse, Alithia.