Kudzuka kwanga patatha zaka 30 zachinyengo, Gawo 2: Kudzuka

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Wolemba Felix waku South America. (Mayina asinthidwa kuti asabwezere.)

Introduction: Mu Gawo I la mndandandawu, Felix waku South America adatiwuza momwe makolo ake adadziwira za gulu la Mboni za Yehova komanso momwe banja lake lilowa mgululi. Félix adatifotokozera m'mene adadutsa ubwana wake komanso unyamata wake mu mpingo momwe kuwonongera mphamvu ndi kusakondweretsedwa kwa Akulu ndi Woyang'anira Dera zimawonedwa kuti zimakhudza banja lake. Mugawo lachiwirili, Félix akutiuza zakudzuka kwake komanso momwe akulu adamuwonetsera "chikondi chomwe sichitha" kuti afotokozere kukayikira kwake paziphunzitso za bungwe, maulosi omwe adalephera, komanso momwe amachitira nkhanza zaana.

Kumbali yanga, ndimayesetsa nthawi zonse kukhala ngati Mkhristu. Ndinabatizidwa ndili ndi zaka 12 ndipo ndidakumana ndi zipsinjo zomwe mboni zachinyamata zambiri, monga kusakondwerera masiku akubadwa, osayimba nyimbo ya fuko, osalumbira kukhulupirika ku mbendera, komanso pamakhalidwe. Ndikukumbukira kuti nthawi ina ndinafunsira kuntchito kuti ndifike msanga kumisonkhano, ndipo abwana anga anandifunsa kuti, “Kodi ndiwe wa Mboni za Yehova?”

"Inde," ndinayankha monyadira.

“Ndiwe m'modzi mwa omwe sagonana asanakwatirane, sichoncho?”

"Inde," ndinayankhanso.

"Simunakwatire ndiye kuti ndinu namwali, sichoncho?", Adandifunsa.

“Inde,” ndinayankha motero, kenako anaitana anzanga onse amene ndinkagwira nawo ntchito nati, “Taonani, uyu adakali namwali. Ali ndi zaka 22 ndipo ndi namwali. ”

Aliyense ankandiseka panthawiyo, koma popeza ndine munthu amene amasamala kwambiri zomwe ena amaganiza, sindinasamale, ndipo ndinaseka nawo limodzi. Pomaliza, adandilola kuti ndichoke molawirira kuntchito, ndipo ndidapeza zomwe ndimafuna. Koma awa ndi mtundu wa zovuta zomwe mboni zonse zidakumana nazo.

Ndidakhala ndi maudindo ambiri mumpingo: mabuku, zomveka, wogwira ntchito, kukonza ndandanda yautumiki wakumunda, kukonza holo, ndi zina zambiri. ngakhale atumiki otumikira analibe maudindo ambiri monga ine. Mosadabwitsa, adandisankha kukhala mtumiki wothandiza, ndipo chimenecho ndiye chinyengo chomwe akulu adagwiritsa ntchito poyambira kukakamiza, ine popeza amafuna kuwongolera mbali zonse za moyo wanga — tsopano ndimayenera kupita kukalalikira Loweruka, ngakhale za ichi sichinali cholepheretsa kuyikira kwawo kwa ine; Ndinkayenera kufika mphindi 30 misonkhano isanachitike pamene akulu, amafika “pa ola” kapena mochedwa nthawi iliyonse. Zinthu zomwe sanakwaniritse zokha, anafunsidwa kwa ine. Patapita nthawi, ndinayamba chibwenzi ndipo mwachilengedwe ndimafuna kucheza ndi chibwenzi changa. Chifukwa chake, ndinkapita kukalalikira kumpingo kwawo pafupipafupi ndipo ndimapita kumisonkhano yawo nthawi ndi nthawi, zokwanira kuti akulu anditengere ku Room B kuti andikalipire chifukwa chosapita kumisonkhano kapena kusalalikira mokwanira kapena kuti ndimadzipangira maolawo za lipoti langa. Amadziwa kuti ndinali wowona mtima mu lipoti langa ngakhale adandinyoza mwanjira ina, chifukwa adadziwa kuti ndidakumana mu mpingo wa yemwe adzakhale mkazi wanga wamtsogolo. Koma zikuwoneka kuti panali mkangano pakati pa mipingo iwiri yoyandikirayi. M'malo mwake, nditakwatirana, akulu ampingo wathu sanasangalale ndi lingaliro langa lokwatira.

Ndimamva kuti andikana pakati pa akulu amipingo, chifukwa nthawi ina ndidapemphedwa kuti ndikagwire ntchito Loweruka mu mpingo woyandikana nawo, ndipo popeza tonse ndife abale, ndidavomera popanda kusintha komanso kusintha. Ndipo mokhulupirika pachizolowezi chawo, akulu ampingo wanga adanditengera ku chipinda B kuti akandifotokozere zifukwa zomwe sindinapite kukalalikira Loweruka. Ndinawauza kuti ndinapita kukagwira ntchito m'Nyumba ya Ufumu ina, ndipo anati, “Umenewu ndi mpingo wanu!”

Ndinayankha kuti, “Koma ndikutumikira Yehova. Zilibe kanthu kuti ndidazipangira mpingo wina. Izi ndi za Yehova ”.

Koma anandiuza mobwerezabwereza kuti, “Uwu ndi mpingo wako.” Panali zochitika zambiri monga izi.

Nthawi ina, ndinali nditakonzekera kupita kutchuthi kunyumba kwa azibale anga, ndipo popeza ndimadziwa kuti akulu amandiyang'anira, ndidaganiza zopita kunyumba ya Mkulu woyang'anira gulu langa ndikamudziwitse kuti ndinali kunyamuka kwa sabata limodzi; ndipo anandiuza kuti ndizipita osadandaula. Tinacheza kwakanthawi, kenako ndinanyamuka ndikupita kutchuthi.

Pamsonkhano wotsatira, nditabwerako kutchuthi, ndidatengedwanso ndi Akulu awiri kupita nawo ku chipinda B. Chodabwitsa, m'modzi mwa Akuluwa ndi omwe ndidapita kukacheza ndisanapite kutchuthi. Ndipo ndidafunsidwa za chifukwa chomwe ndimapezekera pamisonkhano mkati mwa sabata. Ndinayang'ana Mkulu woyang'anira gulu langa ndikuyankha, "Ndinapita kutchuthi". Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndimaganiza chinali chakuti mwina amaganiza kuti ndapita ndi bwenzi langa patchuthi, zomwe sizinali zoona ndipo ndichifukwa chake amalankhula nane. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti adadzinenera kuti ndidachoka popanda chenjezo, ndikuti ndidanyalanyaza mwayi wanga sabata ija, ndikuti palibe amene adalowa m'malo mwanga. Ndinafunsa m'bale amene ankayang'anira gulu langa ngati sakukumbukira kuti ndinapita kunyumba kwawo tsiku lomwelo ndipo ndinamuuza kuti ndisachokako kwa mlungu umodzi.

Anandiyang'ana nati, "Sindikukumbukira".

Sikuti ndidangolankhula ndi Mkuluyo koma ndidamuuzanso wothandizira wanga kuti asadzapezeke, koma adalibe. Apanso ndinabwereza kuti, "Ndinapita kunyumba kwako kuti ndikadziwitse".

Ndipo adayankhanso, "Sindikukumbukira".

Mkulu winayo, osayankhula, adandiuza, "Kuyambira lero, muli ndi dzina la mtumiki wothandiza mpaka woyang'anira dera azibwera ndipo asankhe zomwe tichite nanu".

Zinali zowonekeratu kuti pakati pa mawu anga monga mtumiki wotumikira ndi mawu a Mkulu, mawu a Wamkulu adapambana. Sanali nkhani yodziwa yemwe anali wolondola, kani, inali nkhani yolowezana. Zilibe kanthu kuti ndidziwitse Akulu onse kuti ndikupita kutchuthi. Ngati anena kuti sizowona, mawu awo anali ofunika kuposa anga chifukwa chofunsidwa. Ndakwiya kwambiri ndi izi.

Pambuyo pake, ndidataya mwayi wanga wa mtumiki wothandiza. Koma mkati mwanga, ndinasankha kuti sindidzachitanso zotere.

Ndidakwatirana ndili ndi zaka 24 ndipo ndidasamukira ku mpingo womwe mkazi wanga wapitako, ndipo posakhalitsa, mwina chifukwa chofuna kuthandiza, ndinali ndi maudindo ambiri mu mpingo wanga watsopano koposa mtumiki wina aliyense. Chifukwa chake, akulu adakumana ndi ine kundiuza kuti adandiyankha kukhala mtumiki wothandiza, ndipo adandifunsa ngati ndimalola. Ndipo ndidanena moona mtima kuti sindikuvomereza. Amandiyang'ana ndi maso odabwitsa ndipo amafunsa chifukwa. Ndidawafotokozera za zomwe ndakumana nazo mu mpingo wina, kuti sindikufuna kuchita nawo nthawi ina, ndikuwapatsa ufulu woyesera ndikusokoneza gawo lililonse la moyo wanga, komanso kuti ndinali wokondwa popanda kusankhidwa konse. Adandiuza kuti si mipingo yonse yomwe ili yofanana. Adabwereza 1 Timoteo 3: 1 ndipo adandiuza kuti aliyense amene ali ndi udindo mu mpingo amagwirira ntchito zina zabwino kwambiri, koma ndimakana.

Pambuyo pa chaka chimodzi mu mpingo umenewo, ine ndi mkazi wanga tinali ndi mwayi wogula nyumba yathu, chotero tinayenera kusamukira ku mpingo womwe unatilandira bwino kwambiri. Mpingo unali wachikondi kwambiri ndipo akulu amawoneka kuti anali osiyana kwambiri ndi omwe anali m'mipingo yanga yakale. Popita nthawi, akulu ampingo wanga watsopano adayamba kundipatsa mwayi ndipo ndidawalandira. Pambuyo pake, akulu awiri adakumana nane kuti andidziwitse kuti andisankha kukhala mtumiki wothandiza, ndipo ndidawathokoza ndikuwafotokozera kuti sindimafuna kuyikidwa. Mantha, adandifunsa "chifukwa chiyani", ndipo ndidawawuzanso zonse zomwe ndidakumana nazo ngati mtumiki komanso zomwe mchimwene wanga adakumana nazo, komanso kuti sindinalolerenso kuzunzidwanso, ndikumvetsetsa kuti anali osiyana ndi akulu ena, chifukwa analidi, koma kuti sindinalolere chilichonse kundibwezera momwemonso.

Paulendo wotsatira woyang'anira, pamodzi ndi akulu, adakumana ndi ine, kuti andilimbikitse kulandira maudindo omwe andipatsa. Ndipo, ndinakananso. Chifukwa chake woyang'anira adandiuza kuti mwachidziwikire sindinakonzekere kudutsa mayeso amenewo, ndikuti mdierekezi wakwaniritsa cholinga chake ndi ine, zomwe zidali kundilepheretsa kupita patsogolo mu uzimu. Kodi nthawi yoikika, dzina lake, imagwirizana bwanji ndi zauzimu? Ndinkayembekeza kuti woyang'anira adzandiuza, "zinali bwanji kuti akulu ndi oyang'anira ena adzigwiritsa ntchito moyipa kwambiri", ndipo atandiuza kuti zinali zomveka kuti kukhala ndi zokumana nazo ngati izi, ndikana kukhala ndi mwayi. Ndimayembekezera kuti angamvetsetse komanso kumvetsetsa chisoni, koma osasankha.

Chaka chomwecho ndidamva kuti kumpingo womwe ndimapitako ndisanakwatirane, panali mlandu wa wa Mboni za Yehova yemwe anazunza ang'ono ake atatu aamuna, omwe, ngakhale anamuthamangitsa, sanamangidwepo, Lamulo limafuna pankhani ya mlandu waukulu kwambiriwu. Kodi izi zingatheke bwanji? "Kodi apolisi sanadziwitsidwe?", Ndidadzifunsa. Ndidafunsa amayi anga kuti andiuze zomwe zidachitika, popeza anali mumpingowo ndipo adatsimikiza. Palibe aliyense mu mpingo, ngakhale akulu kapena makolo a ana omwe adachitidwapo zachipongwe, adakauza nkhaniyi kwa akuluakulu oyenerera, poganiza kuti asadetse dzina la Yehova kapena gulu. Izi zinandisokoneza kwambiri. Zingatheke bwanji kuti makolo a ozunzidwa kapena akulu omwe adapanga komiti yoweruza ndikuchotsa wolakwayo sangadzudzule? Kodi chinachitika ndi chiyani kwa Ambuye Yesu "kwa Kaisara zake za Kaisara, ndi kwa Mulungu za Mulungu"? Ndinadabwa kwambiri kotero kuti ndinayamba kufufuza zomwe bungweli linanena pankhani yokhudza kuchitira nkhanza ana, ndipo sindinapeze chilichonse pankhaniyi. Ndipo ndinayang'ana m'Baibulo za izi, ndipo zomwe ndapeza sizimagwirizana ndi momwe Akuluakulu amayendetsera zinthu.

M'zaka 6, ndinali ndi ana awiri komanso koposa kale lonse momwe bungweli lidayendetsera nkhanza za ana lidayamba kundivuta, ndipo ndimaganiza kuti ndikakumana ndi zotere ndi ana anga, sizingatheke kuti ndizitsatira zomwe bungwe lidafunsa. Kwa zaka zambiri, ndakhala ndikulankhula zambiri ndi amayi anga komanso abale anga, ndipo amaganiza ngati ine za momwe bungweli linganenere kuti amanyansidwa ndi zomwe wogwiriridwayo wagwirabe, koma chifukwa chakuchita kwawo, amusiya osavomerezeka. Iyi sinjira ya chilungamo cha Yehova mwanjira iliyonse. Chifukwa chake ndidayamba kudzifunsa, ngati mufunso lomveka bwino mwamakhalidwe ndi Baibuloli, akulephera, ndi chiyani china chomwe akulephera? Kodi kusamalidwa bwino kwa milandu yokhudza kugwiriridwa kwa ana komanso zomwe ndidakumana nazo m'moyo wanga zokhudzana ndi kugwiritsa ntchito molakwika mphamvu ndikuyika udindo wa omwe adatsogolera, kuphatikiza kuwalanga kwa zochita zawo, zinali zisonyezero kena kake?

Ndinayamba kumva milandu ya abale ena omwe amazunzidwa ali aang'ono komanso momwe akuluwo amathandizira. Ndidamva za milandu ingapo yosiyanasiyana momwe nthawi zambiri onse amakhala akuwuza abale kuti kukawuza akuluakulu oyenerera ndiko kuipitsa dzina la Yehova, chifukwa chake palibe amene adanenedwa kwa akuluakulu aboma. Chimene chinandisowetsa mtendere kwambiri ndi "lamulo lankhanza" loperekedwa kwa ozunzidwa, popeza kuti nawonso sakanatha kukambirana nkhaniyi ndi aliyense, chifukwa kungakhale kuyankhula zoyipa za "m'bale" womuzunzayo ndipo izi zitha kuchititsa kuti achotsedwe. Akuluwo anali kuthandiza “mwachikondi ndi mwachikondi” chotani nanga kuti azitsogolera kapena kuchititsa anthu amene akuvutikawo! Ndipo chochititsa mantha kwambiri, palibe chifukwa chilichonse pamene mabanja omwe anali ndi ana sanadziwitsidwe kuti panali achiwerewere pakati pa abale ampingo.

Panthawiyi amayi anga anayamba kundifunsa mafunso ochokera m'Baibulo onena za ziphunzitso za Mboni za Yehova — mwachitsanzo, m'badwo womwewo. Monga momwe Mboni iliyonse yophunzirira ingachitire, ndidamuuza kuyambira pachiyambi kuti asamale, chifukwa anali m'malire ndi "mpatuko" (chifukwa ndi zomwe amadzitcha ngati wina angafunse chiphunzitso chilichonse cha bungweli), ndipo ngakhale ndidaphunzira m'badwo womwe ukukulukirana, adalandira popanda kufunsa chilichonse. Koma kukaikira kudabweranso pankhani yokhudza ngati akulakwitsa pochita nkhanza za ana, chifukwa iyi inali nkhani yapadera.

Chifukwa chake, ndinayamba kuyambira pa Mateyo chaputala 24, kuyesa kumvetsetsa m'badwo womwe amatanthauza, ndipo ndinadabwa kuwona kuti sikuti panali zinthu zina zilizonse zomwe zingatsimikizire kukhulupilira mbadwo wapamwamba, koma lingaliro la m'badwo lingathe osagwiritsanso ntchito monga momwe zidatanthauzidwira zaka zapitazo.

Ndinawauza amayi anga kuti akunena zoona; kuti zomwe Baibulo limanena sizingagwirizane ndi chiphunzitso cha m'badwo. Kufufuza kwanga kunandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti nthawi zonse chiphunzitso cha m'badwo chidasinthidwa, zinali zitatha chiphunzitso choyambacho chidakwaniritsidwa. Ndipo nthawi iliyonse yomwe amapangidwanso kukhala chochitika chamtsogolo, ndipo adalephera kukwaniritsidwa, amasinthanso. Ndinayamba kuganiza kuti zinali za maulosi omwe adalephera. Ndipo Baibulo limalankhula za aneneri onyenga. Ndinawona kuti mneneri wonyenga amatsutsidwa chifukwa cholosera "kamodzi" mdzina la Yehova ndikulephera. Ananiya anali chitsanzo mu Yeremiya chaputala 28. Ndipo "chiphunzitso cha m'badwo" chalephera katatu, katatu ndi chiphunzitso chomwecho.

Chifukwa chake ndidawauza amayi anga ndipo adati akupeza zinthu patsamba la intaneti. Chifukwa ndinali nditaphunzitsidwa kwambiri, ndinamuuza kuti asachite izi, ndikunena, “koma sitingafufuze patsamba lomwe si tsamba lovomerezeka la jw.org. "

Anayankha kuti apeza kuti lamuloli loti tisayang'ane zinthu pa intaneti ndikuti titha kuwona zowona za zomwe Baibulo limanena, ndipo izi zingatisiye kutanthauzira kwa bungwe.

Chifukwa chake, ndimadziyankhulira ndekha kuti, "Ngati zomwe zili pa intaneti ndizabodza, chowonadi chitha kuthana nacho."

Chifukwa chake, ndidayamba kufufuza pa intaneti, nanenso. Ndipo ndidapeza masamba osiyanasiyana ndi ma blogs a anthu omwe amachitidwa chipongwe pomwe anali achichepere ndi mamembala, omwe amachitididwanso zoipa ndi akulu ampingo kuti amadzudzula wozunza. Komanso, ndinazindikira kuti sizinali zochitika zokhazokha m'mipingo, koma zinali zofala kwambiri.

Tsiku lina ndinapeza kanema wotchedwa "Chifukwa chomwe ndidasiya Mboni za Yehova nditatumikira monga Mkulu kwa zaka zopitilira 40”Pa YouTube Los Bereanos, ndipo ndinayamba kuwona momwe kwa zaka gululi limaphunzitsira ziphunzitso zambiri zomwe ndimakhulupirira kuti ndizowona komanso zomwe zinali zabodza. Mwachitsanzo, chiphunzitso chakuti Mkulu wa Angelo Angelo anali Yesu; kufuula kwamtendere ndi chisungiko komwe ife timayembekezera motalika kwambiri kukwaniritsidwa; masiku otsiriza. Onse anali mabodza.

Zonsezi zidandikhudza kwambiri. Sizovuta kudziwa kuti mwakhala mukunamizidwa moyo wanu wonse komanso kuti mwapirira zowawa zambiri chifukwa cha mpatuko. Kukhumudwitsidwa kunali kowopsa, ndipo mkazi wanga anazindikira. Ndinali nditakwiya ndekha kwa nthawi yayitali. Sindinathe kugona kwa miyezi yopitilira iwiri, ndipo sindinakhulupirire kuti ndanyengedwa chonchi. Lero, ndili ndi zaka 35 ndipo zaka 30 mwa zaka zimenezo ndanyengedwa. Ndinagawana nawo tsamba la Los Bereanos ndi amayi anga ndi mng'ono wanga, ndipo nawonso amayamikira zomwe zalembedwa.

Monga ndanenera poyamba, mkazi wanga adayamba kuzindikira kuti china chake sichili bwino ndipo adayamba kundifunsa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndili chonchi. Ndangonena kuti sindimagwirizana ndi njira zina zothetsera mavuto mu mpingo monga nkhani yokhudza kugwiririra ana. Koma sanawone ngati chinthu chachikulu. Sindingathe kumuuza zonse zomwe ndidaziwona nthawi imodzi, chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti, monga mboni iliyonse, komanso momwe ndidachitiranso ndi amayi anga, angakane chilichonse. Mkazi wanga analinso mboni kuyambira ali mwana, koma anabatizidwa ali ndi zaka 17, ndipo pambuyo pake anachita upainiya wokhazikika kwa zaka 8. Chifukwa chake adaphunzitsidwa kwambiri ndipo samakhala ndi zikaiko zomwe ndinali nazo.

Pang'ono ndi pang'ono, ndinayamba kukana mwayi womwe ndinali nawo, ndikunena kuti ana anga amafunikira chisamaliro pamisonkhano ndipo sizinali zachilungamo kuti ndisiye mkazi wanga ndi cholemwacho. Ndipo koposa chowiringula, zinali zowona. Zinandithandiza kuchotsa mwayi wamumpingo. Komanso chikumbumtima changa sichinkandilola kuyankhapo pamisonkhano. Sizinali zophweka kwa ine kudziwa zomwe ndimadziwa ndikukhalabe pamisonkhano yomwe ndimapitilizabe kunama ndekha ndi mkazi wanga ndi abale anga mchikhulupiriro. Ndiye pang’ono ndi pang’ono ndinayamba kuphonya misonkhano, ndipo ndinasiya kulalikira. Izi posakhalitsa zidakopa chidwi cha akulu ndipo awiriwo adabwera kunyumba kwanga kuti adziwe zomwe zimachitika. Ndili ndi mkazi wanga, ndinawauza kuti ndinali ndi ntchito yambiri komanso ndimadwaladwala. Kenako adandifunsa ngati pali chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna kuti ndiwafunse, ndipo ndinawafunsa momwe amachitira akamazunzidwa. Ndipo adandiwonetsa buku la Akuluakulu, "Wetani Gulu Lankhondo", nati akulu azidzudzula nthawi iliyonse pamene malamulo am'deralo awakakamiza kuchita izi.

Adawakakamiza? Kodi malamulo amayenera kukukakamizani kuti unene za mlandu?

Kenako mkangano unayamba ngati akuyenera kupanga lipoti kapena ayi. Ndinawapatsa mamiliyoni a zitsanzo, ngati kuti ngati wozunzidwayo ali wachichepere ndipo wozunza ndi bambo ake, ndipo akulu samanena, koma amamuchotsa, ndiye kuti wachichepere amakhala m'manja mwa womuzunza. Koma nthawi zonse amayankha chimodzimodzi; kuti sanakakamizidwe kukanena, ndikuti malangizo awo akuyenera kuyitanitsa ofesi yanthambi ya Nthambi osati china chilichonse. Apa, kunalibe chilichonse chokhudza chikumbumtima chophunzitsidwa kapena zomwe zinali zoyenera. Palibe chilichonse chomwe chimafunikira konse. Amangomvera malangizo a Bungwe Lolamulira chifukwa "sachita chilichonse chomwe chingavulaze aliyense, koposa zonse kwa wozunzidwa".

Zokambirana zathu zidatha mphindi pomwe amandiuza kuti ndikupusa chifukwa chokana mafunso pa Bungwe Lolamulira. Sananenepatu osanatichenjeza kuti tisakambirane ndi aliyense za nkhanza za ana. Chifukwa chiyani? Kodi amawopa chiyani ngati zomwe angasankhe zili zolondola? Ndidafunsa mkazi wanga.

Sindinkajomba kumisonkhano ndipo ndinkayesetsa kuti ndisalalikire. Ndikadatero, ndidatsimikiza kuti ndizilalikira ndi Baibulo lokha ndikuyesera kupatsa anthu chiyembekezo cha m'Baibulo chamtsogolo. Ndipo popeza sindinachite zomwe bungweli limafuna, zomwe amati ndi Mkhristu wabwino aliyense, tsiku lina mkazi wanga anandifunsa kuti, "Nanga chingachitike ndi chiyani pakati pathu ngati simukufuna kutumikira Yehova?"

Amayesa kundiuza kuti sangakhale ndi munthu yemwe akufuna kusiya Yehova, ndipo ndimayesetsa kumvetsetsa chifukwa chake anatero. Sichinali chifukwa choti samandikondanso, koma kuti ngati angasankhe pakati pa ine ndi Yehova, zinali zowonekeratu kuti angasankhe Yehova. Malingaliro ake anali omveka. Linali lingaliro la bungwe. Chifukwa chake, ndinangoyankha kuti si ine amene ndikapanga chisankho.

Moona mtima, sindinakhumudwe ndi zomwe anandiuza, chifukwa ndimadziwa momwe mboni ilili yoganiza. Koma ndimadziwa kuti ngati sindithamanga kuti ndimudzutse, palibe chabwino chomwe chingatsatire.

Mayi anga, atakhala m'gululi zaka 30, adapeza mabuku ndi magazini ambiri pomwe odzozedwawo adadzinenera kuti ali aneneri a Mulungu m'masiku amakono, gulu la Ezekiel (Mitundu Idzadziwa Kuti Ine Ndine Yehova, Motani? tsamba 62). Panalinso maulosi abodza okhudza chaka cha 1975 (Moyo Wamuyaya Mu Ufulu wa Ana a Mulungu, masamba 26 mpaka 31; Choonadi Chotsogolera ku Moyo Wamuyaya, (wotchedwa Blue Bomb), tsamba 9 ndi 95). Adali atamva abale ena akunena kuti "abale ambiri amakhulupirira kuti kutha kukubwera mu 1975 koma Bungwe Lolamulira silinadziwike konse zomwe bungwe lidaneneratu ndikugogomezera kwambiri zakumapeto kudza mu 1975". Tsopano akunena m'malo mwa Bungwe Lolamulira kuti chinali cholakwika cha abale kukhulupirira tsiku limenelo. Kuphatikiza apo, panali zofalitsa zina zomwe zimati mapeto adzafika "m'zaka za zana lathu la makumi awiri" (Mitundu Idzadziwa Kuti Ine Ndine Yehova, Motani? tsamba 216) ndi magazini monga Nsanja ya Olonda yomwe idatchedwa "1914, the Generation That Not Pass" ndi ena.

Ndinabwereka zofalitsa izi kwa amayi anga. Koma pang'ono ndi pang'ono, ndimakhala ndikuwonetsa mkazi wanga "ngale zazing'ono" ngati zomwe Kukambitsirana Bukuli linanena za "Momwe mungadziwire mneneri wonyenga", komanso momwe sanasankhe yankho labwino kwambiri lomwe Baibulo limapereka mu Deuteronomo 18:22.

Mkazi wanga anapitilizabe kupita kumisonkhano, koma ine sindinapite. Pamsonkhano wina uja anapempha kuti ndilankhule ndi akulu kuti andithandize kuchotsa kukayika kulikonse komwe ndinali nako. Amaganizadi kuti akulu angayankhe mafunso anga onse mokhutiritsa, koma sindinadziwe kuti apempha kuti andithandize. Ndiye tsiku lina nditapita kumsonkhanowo, akulu awiri adabwera kudzandifunsa ngati ndingakhalebe msonkhano ukatha chifukwa amafuna kulankhula nane. Ndinavomera, ngakhale kuti ndinalibe mabuku omwe amayi anga adandibwereka, koma ndinali wokonzeka kuchita chilichonse chomwe ndingathe kuti mkazi wanga azindikire thandizo lenileni lomwe Akulu amafuna kundipatsa. Chifukwa chake ndidasankha kujambula nkhani yomwe idatenga maola awiri ndi theka, yomwe ndikufuna kufalitsa pa Los Bereanos tsamba. Mu "zokambirana zachikondi" izi ndinaulula theka la kukayikira kwanga, kusamalidwa molakwika kwa nkhanza zokhudza kugonana kwa ana, kuti 1914 ilibe maziko ochokera m'Baibulo, kuti ngati 1914 kulibe ndiye kuti 1918 kulibe, kupatula 1919; ndipo ndidavumbula momwe ziphunzitso zonsezi zidasokonekera chifukwa cha 1914 sizowona. Ndinawauza zomwe ndinawerenga m'mabuku a JW.Org onena za maulosi abodza ndipo adangokana kuyankha kukayikira kumeneko. Makamaka adadzipereka kuti andiukire, ndikunena kuti ndimanamizira kudziwa zambiri kuposa Bungwe Lolamulira. Ndipo adanditcha wabodza.

Koma zonsezi sizinandikhudze. Ndidadziwa kuti ndi zomwe anena kuti andithandiza kuti ndisonyeze mkazi wanga momwe akulu omwe amati ndi aphunzitsi omwe amadziwa kutetezera "chowonadi" samadziwa momwe angachitetezere konse. Ndinafika pouza mmodzi wa iwo kuti: “Sukukayikira kuti 1914 ndi chiphunzitso choona?” Anandiyankha ndi "ayi". Ndipo ine ndinati, "Chabwino, nditsimikizireni." Ndipo iye anati, “Ine sindikusowa kuti ndikutsimikizireni inu. Ngati simukukhulupirira kuti chaka cha 1914 ndichowona, musachilalikire, musalankhule za icho m'gawo ndipo ndizomwezo. ”

Zingatheke bwanji kuti ngati chaka cha 1914 ndichiphunzitso choona, inu, mkulu, amene mukuganiza kuti ndinu mphunzitsi wa mawu a Mulungu, simumateteza ndi imfa ndi mfundo za m'Baibulo? Chifukwa chiyani simukufuna kunditsimikizira kuti ndalakwitsa? Kapena kodi chowonadi sichingatuluke chopambana poyang'aniridwa?

Kwa ine, zinali zowonekeratu kuti "abusa" awa si omwe omwe Yesu Yesu adalankhulapo; iwo amene, ali ndi nkhosa zotchingira 99, ali ofunitsitsa kupita kukasaka nkhosa imodzi imodzi yotayika, kusiya 99 yokha kufikira atapeza imodzi yotayikayo.

Momwe ndimawafotokozera mitu yonseyi, ndimadziwa kuti sinali nthawi yabwino yolimba ndi zomwe ndimaganiza. Ndinkawamvetsera komanso kutsimikizira nthawi zomwe ndikanatha, koma osawapatsa zifukwa zonditumizira komiti yoweruza. Monga ndidanenera, zokambirana zidatenga maola awiri ndi theka, koma ndimayesetsa kukhala wodekha nthawi zonse ndipo nditabwelera kunyumba yanga ndidakhalanso bata popeza ndidapeza umboni womwe ndimafunikira kuti ndidzutse mkazi wanga. Ndipo, nditamuwuza zomwe zinachitika, ndinamuwonetsa kujambula nkhaniyo kuti athe kudzipenda yekha. Patatha masiku angapo, anaulula kwa ine kuti anapempha akulu kuti azilankhula ndi ine, koma sanaganize kuti akulu abwera popanda kutsimikiza kuyankha mafunso anga.

Nditazindikira kuti mkazi wanga amafunitsitsa kukambirana za nkhaniyi, ndinamuwonetsa mabuku omwe ndinapeza ndipo anali wololera chidziwitsocho. Ndipo kuyambira nthawi imeneyi, tinayamba kuphunzira limodzi zomwe Baibo imaphunzitsadi komanso makanema a m'bale Eric Wilson.

Kudzuka kwa mkazi wanga kunali kofulumira kwambiri kuposa kwanga, popeza adazindikira mabodza a Bungwe Lolamulira komanso chifukwa chake amanama.

Ndinadabwa nthawi ina atandiuza kuti, "Sitingakhale mgulu lomwe silopembedza koona".

Sindinayembekezere kuti atuluka mwamphamvu chonchi. Koma sizingakhale zophweka. Onsewa ndi ine tili ndi abale athu mgululi. Panthaŵiyo banja langa lonse linatsegula maso awo ponena za gulu. Azichemwali anga aang'ono awiri salinso kumisonkhano. Makolo anga amapitilizabe kupita kumisonkhano ya anzawo mkati mwa mpingo, koma amayi anga mochenjera amayesetsa kuti abale ena atsegule. Ndipo azichimwene anga ndi mabanja awo sapitanso kumisonkhano.

Sitingathe kupezeka pamisonkhano osayesa koyamba kuti apongozi anga adzuke, choncho ine ndi mkazi wanga taganiza zopitiliza kupita kumisonkhano mpaka tikwaniritse izi.

Mkazi wanga adayamba kukayikira makolo ake za nkhanza zaana ndipo adayambitsa kukayikira za maulosi abodza kwa mchimwene wake (Ndiyenera kunena kuti apongozi anga anali akulu, ngakhale adachotsedwa pano, ndipo mlamu wanga ndi wakale -Bethelite, mkulu komanso mpainiya wokhazikika) ndipo monga amayembekezera, adakana mwamphamvu kuwona umboni uliwonse wazomwe zanenedwa. Kuyankha kwawo ndikofanana ndi komwe Mboni za Yehova iliyonse imapereka, zomwe ndi, "Ndife opanda ungwiro omwe timalakwitsa ndipo odzozedwa nawonso ndianthu omwe amalakwitsa."

Ngakhale ine ndi mkazi wanga tidapitilizabe kupita kumisonkhano, izi zidayamba kuvuta kwambiri, chifukwa buku la Chivumbulutso limaphunziridwa, ndipo pamsonkhano uliwonse timayenera kumvera malingaliro omwe amatengedwa ngati chowonadi chenicheni. Mawu monga "mwachiwonekere", "ndithudi" ndi "mwina" adaganiziridwa ngati zowona komanso zosatsutsika, ngakhale kunalibe umboni wokwanira, monga uthenga wodzudzula womwe udayimilidwa ndi miyala yamatalala, chidziwitso chonse. Titafika kunyumba tinayamba kufufuza ngati Baibulo limagwirizana ndi izi.