Igama lam nguSean Heywood. Ndineminyaka eyi-42, ndinokuqeshwa, kwaye ndonwabile ukutshata umfazi wam, uRobin, iminyaka ye-18. NdingumKristu. Ngamafutshane, ndiba nguJoe nje oqhelekileyo.
Nangona ndingazange ndabhaptizwa kumbutho wamaNgqina kaYehova, ndinobudlelwane obude ubomi kunye nawo. Ndayeka ukukholelwa ukuba le ntlangano yayililungiselelo likaThixo emhlabeni lonqulo olunyulu ndaza ndadideka kwaphela ziimfundiso zalo. Izizathu zokuba ekugqibeleni ndiyeke ukunxibelelana namaNgqina kaYehova libali elilandelayo:
Abazali bam baba ngamaNgqina ngasekupheleni kweminyaka yee-1970. Utata wayenenzondelelo, enjengesicaka solungiselelo; kodwa andithandabuzi ukuba umama wam wayekhe wayingena, nangona wayedlala indawo yomfazi ongumama nothembekileyo. Kude kube yiminyaka esixhenxe, umama notata babengamalungu akhutheleyo ebandla eLyndonville, eVermont. Intsapho yakowethu yayinamaqela alinganayo namaNgqina ngaphandle kweHolo yoBukumkani, esitya nabanye emakhayeni abo. Ngo-1983, sabamba amatsha-ntliziyo ezaza kuncedisa ekwakheni iHolo yoBukumkani yaseLyndonville. Kwakukho oomama abangatshatanga ebandleni ngelo xesha, kwaye utata wam wayenokuzinikela ngexesha lakhe kunye nobuchule bokugcina iimoto zabo. Ndabona ukuba iintlanganiso zinde kwaye ziyadika, kodwa ndinabahlobo abangamaNgqina kwaye ndonwabile. Kwakukho ubudlelwane obuninzi phakathi kwamaNgqina ngelo xesha.
NgoDisemba wowe-1983, intsapho yakowethu yafudukela eMcIndoe Falls, eVermont. Le nto ayizange incede intsapho yethu ngokomoya. Ukuya kwethu kwiintlanganiso nasenkonzweni yasentsimini kuye kwancipha ngokufuthi. Ngokukodwa umama wayengayixhasi kwaphela indlela yokuphila yamaNgqina. Emva koko waba nexhala. Ezi zinto mhlawumbi zikhokelele ekubeni utata asuswe njengesicaka solungiselelo. Ngaphezulu kweminyaka eliqela, utata wam ebepholile, esiya kwiintlanganiso zangeCawa kusasa ezimbalwa ngonyaka kunye neSikhumbuzo sokufa kukaKristu.
Ukugqiba kwam esikolweni, ndenza iinzame zokuba ndibe liNgqina likaYehova. Ndaya ndedwa kwiintlanganiso ndaza ndavuma ukufundelwa iBhayibhile kangangeveki. Nangona kunjalo, ndandisoyika kakhulu ukuya kwiSikolo Sobulungiseleli Sobuthixo kwaye ndandingenamdla wokuya kubulungiseleli basentsimini. Kwaye ke, izinto zivele zaxhuzula.
Ubomi bam babulandela indlela yesiqhelo yomntu omdala okhulileyo. Ukutshata kwam noRobin, ndandisacinga ngendlela yamaNgqina yokuphila, kodwa uRobin wayengenguye umntu okholwayo, kwaye wayengonwabanga ngomdla wam kumaNgqina kaYehova. Nangona kunjalo, andizange ndilahle uthando lwam ngoThixo, ndade ndathumela ikopi yasimahla yencwadi, Yintoni Ngokwenene Efundiswa YiBhayibhile? Ndandihlala ndigcina iBhayibhile ekhayeni lam.
Ukukhawuleza ukuya ku-2012. Umama waqala ukuthandana nomntu ongamthandiyo kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. Oku kukhokelele kuqhawulo mtshato olubuhlungu phakathi kwabazali bam kunye nomama. Kodwa ke, wahlaziywa ngokomoya njengelungu lebandla laseLancaster, eNew Hampshire lamaNgqina kaYehova. Eli bandla linike utata wam uthando kunye nenkxaso awayeyidinga kakhulu, endinombulelo kuwo ngonaphakade. Utata wam wasweleka ngoMeyi ka-2014.
Ukusweleka kukatata noqhawulo mtshato lwabazali kwandikhathaza. Utata wayengumhlobo wam osenyongweni, kwaye ndandisamqumbele umama. Ndaziva ngathi ndiphulukene nabazali bam bobabini. Ndidinga intuthuzelo yezithembiso zikaThixo. Ndaphinda ndacinga ngamaNgqina, nangona uRobin wayechasa. Iziganeko ezibini zomeleze isigqibo sam sokukhonza uYehova, nokuba sekumnyam 'entla.
Isiganeko sokuqala yayikukudibana namaNgqina kaYehova ngo-2015. Ndandihleli emotweni ndifunda le ncwadi, Hlala Uyikhumbula Imini KaYehova, Kwithala leencwadi likatata wamaNgqina. Esinye isibini seza kum, sayiqaphela le ncwadi saza sandibuza ukuba ndiliNgqina kusini na. Ndathi hayi, ndaza ndacacisa ukuba ndizithatha njengongenamsebenzi. Bobabini babenobubele kakhulu kwaye umzalwana wandikhuthaza ukuba ndifunde le ngxelo ikuMateyu womsebenzi weyure yeshumi elinanye.
Umnyhadala wesibini wenzekile kuba bendifunda iAugust 15, 2015 IMboniselo kwiwebhsayithi ethi jw.org. Nangona bendikade ndicinga ukuba "ndingahamba" xa imeko zisiya zisiba mandundu, eli nqaku, "Hlala ulindele", labamba ingqalelo yam. Yathi: Yiyo loo nto iZibhalo zibonisa ukuba iimeko zehlabathi ngeli xesha lokugqibela azizukugungqa kangangokuba abantu banyanzelekile ukuba bakholelwe ukuba isiphelo sisondele.
Kakhulu ukulinda de kube ngumzuzu wokugqibela! Ndenze isigqibo. Kwiveki engapheliyo, ndiye ndaphindela eHolweni yoBukumkani. Bendiqinisekile ukuba uRobin usazokuhlala ekhaya xa ndibuya. Ngovuyo, wayekho.
Inkqubela-phambili yam yayihamba kancinci, kodwa izinzile. Ndide ndaya kunyaka ka-2017, ndade ndavuma ukufundelwa iBhayibhile ngumdala olungileyo, ogama linguWayne. Yena nomfazi wakhe uJean babenobubele kakhulu kwaye benomoya wokubuk 'iindwendwe. Njengokuba ixesha lihamba, mna noRobin samenyelwa kwamanye amakhaya amaNgqina ukuze sitye size sonwabe. Ndacinga ngaphakathi: UYehova undinika elinye ithuba, kwaye bendizimisele ukuyisebenzisa.
Isifundo seBhayibhile endandinaso noWayne senza kakuhle. Zazikhona, nangona kunjalo, kukho izinto ezimbalwa ezindikhathazayo. Ukuqala, ndiye ndaphawula ukuba intlonipho enkulu inikwa “ikhoboka elithembekileyo neliyingqondi”, kwiQumrhu Elilawulayo. Elo binzana lakhankanywa rhoqo emithandazweni, iincoko, kunye nezimvo. Into endandicinga ngayo ingelosi yayixelela uJohn kwincwadi yeSityhilelo ukuba alumke kuba (ingelosi) yayilikhoboka nje elinye nelikaThixo. Ngokuzenzekelayo, ngale ntsasa bendifunda kwi-X XXUMX yabaseKorinte 2: 12 apho uPawulos athi, "Kwaye ukuba ndingaphakanyiswa ngaphezulu komgangatho ngobuninzi bezambulo, ndanikwa iliva enyameni, isithunywa sikaSathana Ukundigungxula, ukuze ndingaphakanyiswa ngaphezu komgangatho. ”Ngokuqinisekileyo ndaziva ukuba" ikhoboka elithembekileyo neliyingqondi "lalisonyuswe ngaphezulu komgangatho.
Olunye utshintsho ndiluphawule ukuba lwahlukile kwiminyaka edlulileyo yokunxibelelana namaNgqina kukugxininiswa kwangoku kwimfuno yokuxhasa umbutho ngemali. Ibango labo lokuba umbutho uxhaswa ngokupheleleyo yiminikelo yokuzithandela kubonakala ngathi alinantlonelo, ngenxa yosasazo lwe-JW oluzinzileyo lwezikhumbuzo malunga neendlela ezahlukeneyo umntu anokunikela ngazo. Umntu ogxeka ihlelo elifanayo lobuKristu uchaze ulindelo lwabaphetheyo kubulungu becawa ukuba 'bathandaze, bahlawule, kwaye bathobele'. Le yinkcazo echanekileyo yoko kulindeleke nakumaNgqina kaYehova.
Le kunye neminye imicimbi emincinci yanditsalela ingqalelo, kodwa ndakholelwa ukuba iimfundiso zamaNgqina ziyinyani kwaye akukho nanye kwezi zinto ebeziqhekeza ngelo xesha.
Ukuqhubeka kwesifundo, nangona kunjalo, kwavela ingxelo eyandikhathaza kakhulu. Sasibhekisa kwisahluko esithetha ngokufa apho isithi uninzi lwamaKristu athanjisiweyo sele evuselwe kubomi basezulwini kwaye nokuba abo bafa kumhla wethu bavuselwa kwangoko kubomi basezulwini. Kudala ndisiva oku kuchaziwe, kwaye ndayamkela. Ndifumene intuthuzelo kule mfundiso, mhlawumbi kuba bendisandul 'ukuswelekelwa ngutata. Ngequbuliso, kodwa, ndandinomzuzu “wokukhanya kwibhalbhu”. Ndabona ukuba le mfundiso ayixhaswa sisibhalo.
Ndicinezele ubungqina. U-Wayne wandibonisa i-1 yabase-Korin 15: 51, 52, kodwa andoneliseka. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuba ndifuna ukumba ngakumbi. Nda. Ndaze ndabhalela kwikomkhulu ngalo mba, ngaphezulu kwesihlandlo esinye.
Kwadlula iiveki ezimbalwa xa umdala wesibini ogama linguDan weza nathi esifundweni. UWayne wayenencwadi yakhe nganye enamanqaku amathathu eMboniselo akhutshwa ngeminyaka yee-1970. UWayne noDan benze okusemandleni abo besebenzisa la manqaku mathathu ukuchaza ukuchaneka kwale mfundiso. Yayiyindibano enobubele kakhulu, kodwa ndandingaqinisekanga. Andiqinisekanga ukuba ibhayibhile yakha yavulwa kule ntlanganiso. Bacebise ukuba xa ndinexesha elaneleyo kufuneka ndiwaqwalasele ngakumbi la manqaku.
Ndikhethe la manqaku ngokwahlukeneyo. Ndisakholelwa ekubeni akukho sizathu sigqibo senziwe, kwaye ndachaza iziphumo zam kuWayne noDan. Kungekudala emva koko, uDan wandixelela ngocoselelo ukuba wayethetha nelungu lekomiti yokubhalela ethe kratya nangakumbi ukuba le yinkcazo de ibe liQumrhu Elilawulayo lithetha ngenye indlela. Khange ndiyikholelwe into endiyivayo. Ngokucacileyo, yayingasathethi nganto koko kwakuthethwa yiBhayibhile. Endaweni yoko, nayiphi na into eyalelwa liQumrhu Elilawulayo yindlela ebeyiyo!
Andikwazanga ukuwuyeka lo mbandela uphumle. Ndaqhubeka ndenza uphando olubanzi ndaza ndafumana eyoku-1 kaPetros 5: 4. Nantsi impendulo endiyifunayo ngesiNgesi esicacileyo, esilula. Ithi: Kwaye xa umalusi oyintloko ebonakalisiwe, niyakwamkela isithsaba salo uzuko esingabuniyo. Uninzi lweenguqulelo zeBhayibhile zithi, "xa umalusi oyintloko evela". UYesu 'akabonakalanga' okanye 'ubonakalisiwe'. AmaNgqina kaYehova athi uYesu ubuyile ngokungabonakaliyo kwi1914. Into endingakholwayo. Ayifani nale nto yokuba ubonakaliswe.
Ndiqhubekeke nesifundo sam seBhayibhile kunye nokuzimasa kwam kwiHolo yoBukumkani, kodwa okukhona ndiyithelekisa into endayifundiswayo kunye noko ndikuqondayo iBhayibhile ukuba ikutsho, ukwahlula kuya kusiba nzulu ngakumbi. Ndabhala enye ileta. Iileta ezininzi. Yenza iileta ezimbini kwiofisi yesebe laseMelika nakwiQumrhu Elilawulayo. Khange ndifumane mpendulo. Nangona kunjalo, ndiyazi ukuba isebe lizifumene iileta kuba banxibelelana nabadala balapha. Kodwa I andifumananga mpendulo kwimibuzo yam enyanisekileyo eseBhayibhileni.
Izinto zaba mbi ngakumbi xa ndamenyelwa kwintlanganiso eyayinomnxibelelanisi wequmrhu labadala nomdala wesibini. I-COBE yacebisa ukuba ndiphinde ndihlolisise inqaku leMboniselo, “Uvuko Lokuqala Ngoku Luyaqhubeka! Sasikhe sagqitha kule nto ngaphambili, kwaye ndabaxelela ukuba eli nqaku lalinemposiso enkulu. Abadala bandixelele ukuba bebengekho bezokuxoxa kunye nam ngezibhalo. Bahlasela isimilo sam kwaye bathandabuza iinjongo zam. Baye bandixelela ukuba le kuphela kwempendulo endiza kuyifumana kwaye iQumrhu Elilawulayo lixakeke kakhulu ukuba lijongane nezinto ezifana nam.
Ndaya kwaWayne ngosuku olulandelayo ndabuza malunga nesifundo, kuba abadala ababini kwintlanganiso yam ekhethekileyo babecebise ukuba isifundo siza kupheliswa. UWayne uqinisekisile ukuba uyifumene loo ngcebiso, ewe, isifundo besiphelile. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba bekunzima kuye ukuba athethe, kodwa abaphathi bamaNgqina benze umsebenzi oncomekayo wokuphelisa ukungavisisani nokuphelisa ingxoxo ngokunyaniseka nangokunyaniseka yeBhayibhile kunye nokuqiqa.
Kwaye ke ukunxulumana kwam namaNgqina kaYehova kuye kwaphela ngehlobo lowe-2018. Yonke le nto indikhulule. Ndiyakholelwa ngoku ukuba 'ingqolowa' yamaKristu iza kuvela phantse kuwo onke amahlelo obuKristu. Kwaye kuya kuba njalo 'nokhula'. Kulula kakhulu ukuba silibale into yokuba sonke singaboni size sihlakulele isimo “esingcwele kunawe.” Ndiyakholelwa ukuba umbutho wamaNgqina kaYehova usenzile esi simo sengqondo.
Okubi nangakumbi, nangona kunjalo, kukugxininisa kwe-Mboniselo ekunyuseni u-1914 njengonyaka uYesu awaba nguKumkani ngokungabonakaliyo.
UYesu ngokwakhe wathi njengoko kubhalwe kuLuka 21: 8: “Lumkani ningalahlekiswa; kuba abaninzi baya kuza egameni lam, besithi, 'Ndinguye,' yaye, 'Ixesha elifanelekileyo lisondele.' Musani ukubalandela. ”
Ngaba uyazi ukuba mangaphi amangenelo ale ndinyana kwisalathiso semibhalo ekwithala leencwadi elikwi-intanethi? Inye kanye, ukusukela ngonyaka we-1964. Kubonakala ukuba umbutho awunamdla kumazwi kaYesu apha. Into ephawuleka, nangona kunjalo, kukuba kumhlathi wokugqibela wenqaku elinye umbhali wanika iingcebiso kuwo onke amaKristu aya kuba bubulumko ukuqaphela. Ithi, "Awufuni ukuba lixhoba labantu abanganyanisekanga abaya kukusebenzisa kuphela ukuqhubela phambili amandla abo kunye nesikhundla sabo, kwaye ngaphandle kokukhathalela intlalo-ntle yakho yanaphakade kunye nolonwabo. Ke jonga ubungqina bokuba abo beza ngegama likaKristu, okanye abathi bangabafundisi abangamaKristu, kwaye, ukuba abungqineki bunyanisile, ngoko ke thobela isilumkiso seNkosi esithi: 'Musani ukubalandela. '”
INkosi isebenza ngeendlela ezingaqondakaliyo. Ndilahlekile iminyaka emininzi kwaye ndandilibanjwa iminyaka emininzi. Ndandivalelwe kwinkolelo yokuba usindiso lwam njengomKristu lwalunxulumene ngqo nokuba ndiliNgqina likaYehova. Yayiyinkolelo yam ukuba ithuba lokudibana namaNgqina kaYehova kwiminyaka eyadlulayo kwindawo yokupaka iimoto kaMcDonald yayisisimemo esivela kuThixo sokuba sibuyele kuye. Ibiyi; nangona kungenjalo ngendlela endicinga ngayo. Ndiyifumene iNkosi yam uYesu. Ndonwabile. Ndinolwalamano nodadewethu, umntakwethu nomama, bonke abo abangawo amaNgqina kaYehova. Ndizenzela abahlobo abatsha. Ndinomtshato owonwabisayo. Ndiziva ndisondele eNkosini ngoku ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili ebomini bam. Ubomi bumnandi.
Enkosi Sean ukuba luhambo luni, ezo zakhono zokucinga zibalulekileyo uzisebenzisileyo zikuncede ukuba ubone inyaniso yebhayibhile ngaphezu komntu okhuthazayo, wonwabile kuba ukhululekile kumasiko abantu kwaye wonwabile ngokwazi uKristu.
Ubungqina obuhle! Enkosi kakhulu ngokwabelana ibali lakho.
Molo Sean
Uye wandikhuthaza kwindlela oqiqa ngayo ngebhayibhile kwaye ucaphula izibhalo ozichazayo ukuba ndiza kuzikhumbula kwaye NDICELA ukuyeka ukuphawula kule ndawo.
Ngamana umoya oyingcwele kaThixo ungaqhubeka nokukhulisa
Molo Sean. Enkosi ngamava akho avulekileyo. I-Korinte 15 51,52 ziivesi ezinomdla. Ndiyayiqonda inkcazo yeWT, nangona ndingavumi. Ngaba unokuba nobubele bokundicacisela ukuba yintoni eyaba ngumzuzu wakho "webhalbhu yokukhanyisa" Nguwuphi umbuzo owuphakamisileyo kwileta yakho? Andinqweneli ukuqikelela, kuba andikwazi ukuyazi indlela le nto icace gca kuwe.
Iminqweno emihle kunye nako konke ukufunda la manqaku amahle kunye nezimvo.
IMboniselo yasifumana sonke ukuba siyilandele, kuba ezinye ii-JWs zazifunda nathi ngelixa singazi; kwaye ngelixa babelana nathi ngenyaniso ethile yeBhayibhile ekugqibeleni basenza sikholelwa kutoliko lwe-WT lukaMateyu 24:45. Bendihlala ndiphikisa ukukhutshwa kweemfundiso ezithile ze-WT ngexesha lokufunda kwam kwasekuqaleni neJW. Ukuba bekungekho ngenxa yokuba ndandidibene nomntu, ndiqinisekile ukuba ngewayesirhoxisile isifundo sam. Kodwa emva kohlolisiso oluninzi kunye nokucinga ngendlela ezinye iinkolo eziqonda ngayo (ezinye) iingongoma zeBhayibhile ngokungachanekanga, njengamalungu athabatha isihloko... Funda ngokugqithisileyo "
Ndizonwabele kakhulu izimvo zakho Messenger. Ingakumbi umhlathi wokugqibela. Ii-JW ziye zafundiswa ukuba zilawulwa ligama elithi "Christian". Nangona BA (inqanaba kunye nefayile) bafundiswa ukuba bangathathi sonka newayini efuzisela idini likaKristu BONKE BAKHO. U-John 6: 53 uthi, "Uthe ngoko uYesu kubo, Inene, inene, ndithi kuni, ukuba anithanga niyidle inyama yoNyana woMntu, nilisele igazi lakhe, aninabo ubomi kuni."
Enkosi uSheryl, kwaye uqinisekile, qhubeka kwaye utye, nokuba awuziva ukhululekile ukwenjenjalo kwiHolo yakho yoBukumkani ngenxa yezimvo ezinokubakho zeJWs. Kwenze kwenye indawo ukuba unqwenela njalo. UKristu uyazi xa usazi. Kodwa mandilungise into endiyithethileyo kumhlathi wam wokugqibela apha ngasentla xa ndibhalile: “Kwaye nangona u-Kristu wayehleli eyinxalenye yenkolo yakhe yokreqo, wanqula apho, wabulawa ngenxa yoko. Oko ukuba ngumzekelo kumaKristu kufanelekile ukuba kwenzeke nakweyiphi na i-JWs ethanjisiweyo ethi izame ukuhlala kuloo nkolo. Yiyo loo nto isilumkiso sikaKristu sokuba abanye... Funda ngokugqithisileyo "
Anonymous Wrote, “INkosi isebenza ngeendlela ezingaqondakaliyo. Ndilahlekile iminyaka emininzi kwaye ndandilibanjwa iminyaka emininzi. Ndandivalelwe kwinkolelo yokuba ukusindiswa kwam njengomKristu kwakuxhomekeke ekubeni ndiliNgqina likaYehova. ” Kuthatha ixesha elide ukoyisa ulawulo lweengqondo xa sele uphantsi kwempembelelo yayo, yinto ongenakuze uyilibale ngaphandle kwamandla eNkosi uYesu Krestu! Kwaye nangayo loo nto usakukukhumbuza rhoqo ukuba uyazi ngayo. Masibe sisifundo esi kwaye uhlale ukhumbula ukuba... Funda ngokugqithisileyo "
Enkosi ngokuthumela oku, Sean. Kuyahlekisa, kodwa xa ubuxoki buqala ukuvela, bunokuvela ngokukhawuleza. Akunjalo kwiminyaka emininzi edlulileyo, bendiya kuzikhusela iimfundiso ze-Watchtower, nangona ndandingasahlanganisi nenkuthalo. Ke, kubonakala ngathi imisonto yokuqala ethandabuzekayo yavula indlela yophando ngakumbi kwaye kwabonakala ngathi yonke intambo endiyirholileyo yajika yaya kutyhila ngakumbi. Ndaye ndafumanisa ukuba ndibathathe ngokwelizwi labo ngokubhekisele kuzo zonke iintlobo zeemfundiso kwaye ndakuba ndiqalisile ukuthandabuza ubunyani bazo kwacaca ukuba... Funda ngokugqithisileyo "
Enkosi Sean ngokwabelana ngamava akho. Kwakukhuthaza kakhulu ukufunda.
Wow, libali elihle kangakanani eli, ndiyazi ngokobuqu, nangona bengekho njengomntwana, iminyaka yam ethile eyadlulayo, andizange ndizole xa ndafumanisa inyani malunga nenyaniso, amanye amava am ebandleni lam akancedi.Ndakhathazeka, ndinomsindo kwaye ndiphoxekile kakhulu. Ukususela ngoko ndiphucule, kodwa qhubeka ufumane ulwazi olungakumbi ukuze uhlale kude kuyo yonke inkolo ehlelekileyo.