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NguFeliksi woMzantsi Merika. (Amagama atshintshiwe ukunqanda ukuziphindezela.)
intshayelelo: Kwinxalenye yokuqala yolu ngcelele, uFelix wase Mzantsi Melika usixelele ngendlela abazali bakhe abafunde ngayo ngentshukumo yamaNgqina kaYehova kunye nendlela usapho lwakhe olwazibandakanya ngayo nombutho. UFélix usicacisele ngendlela awabudlula ngayo ubuntwana bakhe kunye nokuba kwinqanaba lokufikisa ebandleni apho ukusetyenziswa gwenxa kwamandla nokungakhathali kwaBadala kunye noMveleli weSekethe kwajongwa kuchaphazela usapho lwakhe. Kweli candelo 2, uFélix usixelela ngokuvuka kwakhe kunye nendlela abadala abambonisa ngayo "uthando olungasokuze luphele" ukucacisa ukuthandabuza kwakhe malunga neemfundiso zombutho, ukusilela kweziprofetho, kunye nokuphathwa gadalala ngokwesondo kwabantwana.
Kwelam icala, bendihlala ndizama ukuziphatha njengomKristu. Ndabhaptizwa ndineminyaka eli-12 ubudala kwaye ndangena kwiingcinezelo ezifanayo njengamangqina amaninzi aselula, njengokungabhiyozeli imihla yokuzalwa, ukungaculi umhobe wesizwe, ukungafungi ngokunyaniseka kwiflegi, kunye nemicimbi yokuziphatha. Ndikhumbula ngenye imini xa kwakufuneka ndicele emsebenzini ukuze ndifike kwangethuba kwiintlanganiso, umphathi wam wandibuza, “UliNgqina likaYehova?”
“Ewe,” ndaphendula ngokuzingca.
“Ungomnye wabo bangabelani ngesondo ngaphambi kokuba batshate, akunjalo?”
"Ewe," ndaphendula kwakhona.
"Awutshatanga ke uyintombi, andithi?", Wandibuza.
“Ewe,” ndaphendula, emva koko wabiza bonke abantu endandisebenza nabo wathi, “Jongani, lo usenyulu. Uneminyaka engama-22 kwaye uyintombi enyulu. ”
Wonke umntu wayehlekisa ngam ngelo xesha, kodwa kuba ndingumntu okukhathaleleyo kakhulu malunga nokuba abanye bacinga ntoni, andikhathalelanga, kwaye bendihleka kunye nabo. Okokugqibela, wandivumela ukuba ndihambe kwangoko emsebenzini, ndafumana into endiyifunayo. Kodwa olu luhlobo loxinzelelo abajamelana nawo onke amangqina.
Ndineembopheleleko ezininzi ebandleni: uncwadi, isandi, umlindi, ukucwangciswa kwenkonzo yasentsimini, ukulungiswa kweholo, njl.njl. nkqu nezicaka zolungiselelo zazingenamalungelo amaninzi njengam. Akumangalisi, bandimisela njengesicaka solungiselelo, kwaye eso yayisisizathu sokuba abadala basebenzise ukuqala kwabo ukunyanzela, mna kuba bafuna ukulawula zonke iinkalo zobomi bam — ngoku kwakufuneka ndiphume ndiye kushumayela ngeMigqibelo, nangona oku khange kube ngumqobo kwisindululo sabo kum; Kwakufuneka ndifike kwimizuzu engama-30 ngaphambi kwazo zonke iintlanganiso xa bona, abadala, befika “kanye ngeli lixa” okanye emva kwexesha ngalo lonke ixesha. Izinto abangakhange bazizalisekise ngokwabo, zifunwa kum. Ngexesha, ndaqala ukuthandana kwaye ngokwendalo ndifuna ukuchitha ixesha nentombi yam. Ke, bendiphuma ndiyokushumayela ebandleni lakhe rhoqo kwaye ndiye kwiintlanganiso zakhe amaxesha ngamaxesha, ngokwaneleyo ukuba abadala bandise eGumbini B bandingxolise ngokungayi kwiintlanganiso okanye ngokungashumayeli ngokwaneleyo okanye ndizenzele iiyure yengxelo yam. Babesazi ukuba ndinyanisekile kwingxelo yam nangona babendithuka ngenye indlela, kuba babesazi ukuba ndadibana ebandleni lalowo wayeza kuba ngumfazi wam wangomso. Kodwa kuyabonakala ukuba kwakukho uhlobo lobutshaba phakathi kwala mabandla mabini angabamelwane. Ngapha koko, ukutshata kwam, abadala bebandla lam babonisa ukungasithandi isigqibo sam sokutshata.
Ndaziva ndilahliwe phakathi kwabadala bamabandla, kuba kanye xa ndacelwa ukuba ndiye kusebenza ngoMgqibelo kwibandla eliselumelwaneni, kwaye ekubeni sonke singabazalwana, ndavuma ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ndaza ndenza utshintsho. Ngokunyaniseka kwisiko labo, abadala bebandla lam bandibuyisela eRoom B ukuze ndicacise izizathu zokuba ndingayanga ukushumayela ngoMgqibelo. Ndabaxelela ukuba ndiye kusebenza kwenye iHolo yoBukumkani, baza bathi, “Eli libandla lenu!”
Ndaphendula ndathi, “Kodwa ndikhonza uYehova. Ayinamsebenzi ukuba ndiyenzele elinye ibandla. YekaYehova ”.
Kodwa baphinda bathi, “Eli libandla lakho.” Zininzi iimeko ezinje.
Kwesinye isihlandlo, ndandiceba ukuya eholideyini kumzi wabazala bam, kwaye kuba ndandisazi ukuba abadala bandibukele, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye kwindlu kaMdala ophethe iqela lam ndimazise ukuba ukuhamba iveki; kwaye wathi mandiqhubeke ndingakhathazeki. Sincokole ixeshana, emva koko ndahamba ndaya eholideyini.
Kwintlanganiso elandelayo, emva kokuba ndibuya eholideyini, ndaphinda ndathathwa ngaBadala ababini ndaya eRoom B. Isimanga kukuba, omnye waba badala yayingulowo ndandiye kumndwendwela phambi kokuba ndiye eholideyini. Kwaye ndabuzwa malunga nokuba kutheni ndingabikho kwiintlanganiso phakathi evekini. Ndijonge uMdala ophethe iqela lam ndaphendula, "Ndiye eholideyini". Into yokuqala endandiyicinga kukuba inoba babecinga ukuba ndihambe nentombazana yam eseholideyini, eyayingeyonyani kwaye yiyo loo nto bethethile nam. Into engaqhelekanga yayikukuba babesithi ndihambe ngaphandle kwesixwayiso, kwaye ndiwatyeshele amalungelo am kuloo veki, kwaye akukho mntu uthathe indawo yam. Ndabuza lo mzalwana wayephethe iqela lam ukuba akayikhumbuli na into yokuba ndiye kwakhe ngaloo mini ndaza ndamxelela ukuba ndiza kuhlala iveki.
Uye wandijonga wathi, "andikhumbuli".
Khange ndithethe noMdala kuphela kodwa ndixelele nomncedisi wam ukuze angabikho, kodwa ebengekho. Ndaphinda ndaphinda, "Ndiye endlwini yakho ukukwazisa".
Waphinda waphendula wathi, "andikhumbuli".
Omnye umdala, engakhange athethe, wandixelela, "Ukusukela namhlanje, unegama lesicaka solungiselelo kude kufike umphathi wesekethe aze athathe isigqibo malunga nento esiya kuyenza ngawe".
Kwakucacile ukuba phakathi kwelizwi lam njengesicaka solungiselelo kunye nelizwi laMdala, ilizwi laMdala lahlula. Yayingengombandela wokwazi ukuba ngubani olungileyo, kunoko, yayingumbandela wolawulo oluphezulu. Ayinamsebenzi ukuba ndinike isaziso kubo bonke abadala ukuba ndisiya eholideyini. Ukuba bathi ayiyonyani, igama labo belixabisa ngaphezulu kwelam ngenxa yombuzo wenqanaba. Ndicaphukile kakhulu ngale nto.
Emva koko, ndaphelelwa sisicaka solungiselelo. Kodwa ngaphakathi kwam, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba andisayi kuphinda ndizibekeke kwimeko enjalo.
Ndatshata ndineminyaka engama-24 ndathuthela kwibandla apho inkosikazi yam yangoku yayisiya khona, kwaye kwakamsinya emva koko, mhlawumbi ngenxa yokuba ndithanda ukuba luncedo, ndaba noxanduva olukhulu kwibandla lam elitsha kunaso nasiphi na esinye isicaka solungiselelo. Ke, abadala badibana nam ukuze bandixelele ukuba bandicebisile ukuba ndibe sisicaka solungiselelo, bandibuza ukuba ndiyavuma na. Kwaye ndatsho ngokunyaniseka ukuba andivumi. Baye bandijonga ngamehlo amangalisiweyo babuza ukuba kutheni. Ndabacacisela ngamava am kwelinye ibandla, ukuba andifuni ukuphinda ndibone ngokudibana, ndibanike ilungelo lokuzama ukuphatha baphazamise kuzo zonke iinkalo zobomi bam, kwaye ndonwabile ngaphandle kokuqeshwa. Bandixelele ukuba asingawo onke amabandla afanayo. Bacaphula eyoku-1 kuTimoti 3: 1 kwaye bandixelela ukuba nabani na osebenza ukuba nesikhundla ebandleni usebenzela into ebalaseleyo, njl njl, kodwa ndiye ndaqhubeka.
Emva konyaka sikuloo bandla, mna nomfazi wam saba nethuba lokuthenga indlu yethu, ngoko ke kwafuneka sifudukele kwibandla esamkelwa kakuhle kulo. Ibandla lalinothando kakhulu kwaye abadala babonakala bahluke kakhulu kunamabandla endandikade ndawenza. Ngokuhamba kwexesha, abadala bebandla lam elitsha baqala ukundinika amalungelo kwaye ndawamkela. Emva koko, abadala ababini badibana nam bandixelela ukuba bandincomile njengesicaka solungiselelo, ndaza ndababulela ndacacisa ukuba andinamdla wokumiselwa. Benoloyiko, bandibuze "ngoba kutheni", ndaphinda ndabaxelela yonke into endidlule kuyo njengesicaka solungiselelo kunye nento umntakwethu awele kuyo, kwaye andizimisele ukuphinda ndiyidlule, kwaye ndiyaqonda ukuba yahlukile kwabanye abadala, kuba babenjalo ngenene, kodwa ukuba ndandingazimiselanga kuvumela nantoni na ukuba indibeke kuloo meko kwakhona.
Kutyelelo olulandelayo lomveleli, kunye nabadala, badibana nam, ukundenza ukuba ndivume amalungelo abo andinike wona. Kwaye, kwakhona ndaliwe. Ke umveleli undixelele ukuba ngokucacileyo andizilungelanga ukwenza ezi mvavanyo, nokuba usathana wayeyifumene injongo yakhe nam, eyayikukuthintela mna ukuqhubela phambili ngokomoya. Ukudibana, isihloko, kunxulumene nantoni ngokomoya? Ndiyathemba ukuba umbonisi uzakundixelela, "kubi kangakanani ukuba abadala kunye nabanye abaphathi baziphethe kakubi", kwaye nokuba uyakundixelela ukuba yayinengqondo into yokuba namava anje, ndingala ukuba namalungelo. Ndilindele ukuqonda okuncinci kunye novelwano, kodwa hayi ukukhetha kwakhona.
Kwakuloo nyaka ndafumanisa ukuba kwibandla endandikulo ngaphambi kokuba nditshate, kwakukho ityala leNgqina likaYehova elalihlukumeze abatshana balo abathathu, abathi, nangona babemgxotha ebandleni, babengekavalelwa, umthetho ufuna kwimeko yolwaphulo-mthetho olubi kakhulu. Ingenzeka njani le nto? "Amapolisa ebengaxelelwanga?", Ndizibuze. Ndacela umama ukuba andixelele okwenzekileyo, kuba wayekwelo bandla kwaye wayiqinisekisa imeko. Akukho namnye ebandleni, nabadala okanye abazali babantwana abaye baphathwa gadalala, baxele lo mcimbi kwabasemagunyeni abanesakhono, kucingelwa ukuba bangangcolisi igama likaYehova okanye umbutho. Oko kwandibangela ukudideka okukhulu. Kungenzeka njani ukuba abazali bamaxhoba okanye abadala abenze ikomiti yezomthetho kwaye bagxotha umoni abayi kumgxeka? Kwenzeka ntoni kwinto eyathethwa yiNkosi uYesu “kuKesare izinto zikaKesare nakuThixo izinto zikaThixo”? Ndididekile kangangokuba ndaqala ukuphanda into eyathethwa ngumbutho malunga nokuphathwa gadalala kwabantwana ngokwesondo, kwaye andifumani nto malunga nale meko. Kwaye ndakhangela eBhayibhileni ngale nto, kwaye into endiyifumeneyo ibingahambelani nendlela abadala abenza ngayo izinto.
Kwiminyaka emi-6, ndandinabantwana ababini kwaye ngaphezulu kunakuqala umba wendlela umbutho ophethe ngayo ukuphathwa gadalala kwabantwana kwaqala ukundikhathaza, kwaye ndandicinga ukuba ukuba ndingahamba kwimeko enjalo nabantwana bam, ngekhe kwenzeke ukuthobela le nto ibuzwe ngumbutho. Kule minyaka, bendineengxoxo ezininzi nomama wam kunye namalungu osapho lwam, kwaye bacinga njengam malunga nendlela umbutho onokuthi uyasenyanya isenzo somdlwenguli kanti, ngenxa yokungasebenzi kwabo, bamshiya ngaphandle kweziphumo zomthetho. Le asiyondlela yokusesikweni kukaYehova nangayiphi na indlela. Ke ndiye ndaqala ukuzibuza, ukuba kulo mbuzo ucacileyo ngokokuziphatha nangokwebhayibhile, bayasilela, yeyiphi enye into abanokusilela kuyo? Ngaba ukusingathwa ngendlela kwamatyala okuphathwa gadalala kwabantwana ngokwesondo kunye noko ndikwehleleyo ebomini bam malunga nokusetyenziswa gwenxa kwamandla nokunyanzeliswa kwenqanaba labo bakhokelayo, kunye nokungohlwaywa kwezenzo zabo, kwakubonisa into ethile?
Ndiqale ukuva amatyala abanye abazalwana ababengamaxhoba okuphathwa gadalala ngokwesondo xa babesebancinci kunye nendlela abadala abazisingatha ngayo izinto. Ndafunda ngamatyala aliqela awahlukeneyo apho into eqhelekileyo kuwo onke yayihlala ixelela abazalwana ukuba ukuyixela kwabasemagunyeni abafanelekileyo yayikukungcolisa igama likaYehova, ke ngoko akukho nalinye elalixelwa kwabasemagunyeni. Eyona nto yayindikhathaza kakhulu “ngumthetho wobugwenxa” obumiselwe amaxhoba, kuba ayengakwazi ukuxoxa nomnye lo mbandela, kuba oko kuya kuba kukumthetha kakubi “umzalwana” wakhe, kwaye oko kungakhokelela ekususweni kubudlelane. Olunjani ukuba “lukhulu nothando” uncedo olunikelwa ngabadala ekwalathiseni ngokungqalileyo nangokungangqalanga amaxhoba! Eyona nto yoyikisayo, akukho meko apho iintsapho ezinabantwana abancinci ziye zaziswa ukuba kukho umntu oxhaphaza abantwana ngokwesondo phakathi kwabazalwana bebandla.
Ngelo xesha umama waqala ngokundibuza imibuzo yebhayibhile malunga neemfundiso zamaNgqina kaYehova-umzekelo, isizukulwana esiqhekezayo. Njengalo naliphi na iNgqina elifundiswe njalo, ndalixelela kwasekuqaleni ukuba lilumke, kuba lalisemngciphekweni “wowexuko” (kuba yilento bayibiza ukuba ubani ubuza nayiphi na imfundiso ngombutho), kwaye nangona ndandifundile isizukulwana esiqhekezayo, yamkela ngaphandle kokubuza nantoni na. Kodwa amathandabuzo avela kwakhona malunga nokuba ngaba baphosisile na ekuphatheni kwabo ukuphathwa gadalala kwabantwana ngokwesondo, kuba lo yayingumcimbi owahlukileyo.
Ke, ndiye ndaqala ukusukela ekuqaleni noMateyu isahluko 24, ndizama ukuqonda ukuba sisiphi isizukulwana awayebhekisa kuso, kwaye ndothuka xa ndibona ukuba bekungekho kuphela izinto zokuqinisekisa ukukholelwa kwisizukulwana esingaphezulu, kodwa ukuba ingcinga yesizukulwane Ungaze usetyenziswe njengoko bekuchaziwe kwiminyaka edlulileyo.
Ndixelele umama ukuba unyanisile; ukuba le nto ithethwa yiBhayibhile ayinakulunga kwimfundiso yesizukulwana. Uphando lwam lwakhokelela ekubeni ndiqonde ukuba nanini na xa kutshintshwa imfundiso yesizukulwana, kwakusemva kokuba imfundiso yangaphambili isilele ukuzaliseka. Kwaye ngalo lonke ixesha iphinda yenziwa ukuba ibe ngumsitho wexesha elizayo, kwaye kwakhona isilele ukuzaliseka, bayitshintsha kwakhona. Ndaqala ukucinga ukuba kwakuprofetile ukusilela. Kwaye iBhayibhile ithetha ngabaprofeti bobuxoki. Ndafumanisa ukuba umprofeti wobuxoki ugwetyelwe ukuprofeta “kube kanye” egameni lika Yehova nokusilela. UAnaniyas wayengumzekelo kuYeremiya isahluko 28. Kwaye "imfundiso yesizukulwana" isilele ubuncinci kathathu, kathathu ngemfundiso efanayo.
Ndiye ndayithetha ke nomama wam wathi uyazifumana izinto kumaphepha e-Intanethi. Kuba bendifundiswe kakhulu, ndimxelele ukuba makangayenzi lonto, esithi, “kodwa asinakukhangela kumaphepha angengawo asemthethweni jw.org. "
Uphendule wathi ufumanise ukuba umyalelo wokungajongi izinto kwi-Intanethi wenzelwe ukuba singabuboni ubunyani bento ethethwa yiBhayibhile, kwaye oko kungasishiya nentsingiselo yombutho.
Ndaye ndathi kum, "Ukuba into ekwi-Intanethi ibubuxoki, inyani iyakoyisa."
Ke, ndiye ndaqala ukukhangela kwi-Intanethi, ngokunjalo. Kwaye ndafumanisa amaphepha ahlukeneyo kunye neebhloko zabantu abaxhatshazwe ngokwesini xa bebancinci ngamalungu ombutho, nabo baphathwa kakubi ngabadala bebandla ngokumsola umhlaseli. Kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba ezo yayingezizo iimeko ezingafaniyo emabandleni, kodwa yayiyinto ebanzi kakhulu.
Ngenye imini ndafumana ividiyo ethi "Isizathu sokuba ndishiye amaNgqina kaYehova emva kokukhonza njengoMdala ngaphezu kweminyaka engama-40"Kwisitishi se-YouTube I-Los Bereanos, kwaye ndiye ndaqala ukubona indlela iminyaka umbutho efundisa ngayo iimfundiso ezininzi endizibambe njengeyinyani kwaye, eneneni, zibubuxoki. Umzekelo, imfundiso yokuba ingelosi enkulu uMikayeli yayinguYesu; ukukhala koxolo nonqabiseko ebesilinde ixesha elide ukuba luzalisekiswe; imihla yokugqibela. Zonke zazibubuxoki.
Lonke olu lwazi lundibethe kakhulu. Akukho lula ukufumanisa ukuba ubuqhathiwe bonke ubomi bakho kwaye unyamezele ukubandezeleka okukhulu ngenxa yehlelo. Ukuphoxeka kwakunzima, kwaye umfazi wam wakubona. Ndandinomsindo ixesha elide. Bendingakwazi ukulala ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezimbini, kwaye bendingakholelwa ukuba ndiqhathiwe ngoluhlobo. Namhlanje, ndineminyaka engama-35 ubudala kwaye engama-30 kuloo minyaka ndaqhathwa. Ndabelana ngephepha leLos Bereanos nomama kunye nodadewethu omncinci, kwaye nabo bayakuxabisa umxholo.
Njengoko besenditshilo ngaphambilana, umfazi wam waqala waqonda ukuba ikhona into engalunganga ngam kwaye waqala wandibuza ukuba kutheni ndinje. Nditshilo nje ukuba andivumelani neendlela ezithile zokwenza imicimbi ebandleni ezinje ngombandela wokuphathwa gadalala ngokwesondo kwabantwana. Kodwa akazange abone ukuba yinto enzulu. Khange ndikwazi ukumxelela yonke into endiyibonileyo ngaxeshanye, kuba bendisazi ukuba, njengalo naliphi na ingqina, nanjengoko bendiphendule nomama, uyakwala yonke into ngokungqalileyo. Umfazi wam naye waba lingqina ukususela ebuntwaneni bakhe, kodwa wabhaptizwa xa wayeneminyaka eli-17 ubudala, emva koko waba nguvulindlela othe ngxi kangangeminyaka esi-8. Ke wayefundiswe kakhulu kwaye wayengenamathandabuzo endinawo.
Kancinci kancinci, ndaqala ukuwalahla amalungelo endandinawo, ndinesizathu sokuba abantwana bam bafuna ukuhoywa ngexesha leentlanganiso kwaye kwakungalunganga kum ukushiya umfazi wam naloo mthwalo. Kwaye ngaphezu kwesizathu, kwakuyinyani. Kwandinceda ndahlukana namalungelo ebandla. Isazela sam besingandivumeli ukuba ndigqabaze ezintlanganisweni. Kwakungeyondlwan 'iyanetha kum ukuyazi into endiyaziyo kodwa ndikwintlanganiso endandiqhubeka nokuzixokisela yona nomfazi wam nabantakwethu elukholweni. Ngokuthe ngcembe, nam ndaya ndiphoswa ziintlanganiso, ndayeka nokushumayela. Kungekudala oku kwatsala umdla wabadala kwaye ababini kubo beza kwam bezokufumanisa ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni. Ndikunye nomfazi wam, ndabaxelela ukuba ndinomsebenzi omninzi kunye neengxaki zempilo. Emva koko bandibuze ukuba ikhona na into endifuna ukuyibuza, ndaza ndibabuza malunga neenkqubo zamatyala okuphathwa gadalala ngokwesondo kwabantwana. Baye bandibonisa incwadi yabadala, “Yalusani umhlambi”, kwaye bathi abadala mababagxeke nanini na xa imithetho yendawo ibanyanzela ukuba benze oku.
Ngaba unyanzelekile? Ngaba umthetho kunyanzelekile ukuba uxele ulwaphulo-mthetho?
Ke kwaqala impikiswano malunga nokuba kufuneka benze ingxelo okanye hayi. Ndibanike izigidi zemizekelo, ukuba kwenzeka ntoni ukuba ixhoba lisencinci kwaye umxhaphazi ngutata wakhe, kwaye nabadala abaxeli, kodwa bayamsusa kubudlelane, emva koko lo mncinci uhlala kwinceba lomxhaphazi wakhe. Kodwa bahlala bephendula ngendlela efanayo; ukuba abanyanzelekanga ukuba bayixele, kwaye umyalelo wabo kukubiza idesika esemthethweni yeOfisi yeSebe hayi enye into. Apha, kwakungekho nto malunga nokuba isazela esiqeqeshiweyo sasiyalela ntoni okanye sasiyintoni na esilungileyo ngokuziphatha. Akukho nto ibaluleke kwaphela. Bathobela kuphela ulwalathiso lweQumrhu Elilawulayo kuba "abayi kwenza nantoni na eyingozi kuye nabani na, ubuncinci kunabo bonke kwixhoba lokuxhatshazwa ngokwesondo".
Incoko yethu iphele ngalo mzuzu bendixelele ukuba ndisisidenge ngokubuza imibuzo yeQumrhu Elilawulayo. Abazange bathethe kakuhle ngaphandle kokulumkisa ukuba masixoxe ngemicimbi yokuxhatshazwa kwabantwana ngokwesondo nomntu. Ngoba? Babesoyika ntoni ukuba izigqibo abazenzayo zilungile? Ndibuze umfazi wam loo nto.
Ndahlala ndiphoswa ziintlanganiso kwaye ndizama ukungashumayeli. Ukuba ndenzile, ndiqinisekile ukuba ndishumayela ngeBhayibhile kuphela kwaye ndizama ukunika abantu ithemba eliseBhayibhileni ngekamva. Kwaye ekubeni ndingakhange ndiyenze into efunwa ngumbutho, into ekumele ukuba yenziwe ngumKristu olungileyo, ngenye imini umfazi wam wandibuza, “Kuza kwenzeka ntoni phakathi kwethu ukuba awufuni ukukhonza uYehova?”
Wayezama ukundixelela ukuba akanakukwazi ukuhlala nomntu ofuna ukumshiya uYehova, ndazama ukuqonda ukuba kutheni esitsho. Kwakungengenxa yokuba engasandithandi, kodwa kunokuba kunjalo ukuba ukhethe phakathi kwam noYehova, kwakucacile ukuba uya kukhetha uYehova. Imbono yakhe yayiqondakala. Yaba ngumbono wombutho. Ke, ndiphendule kuphela ukuba yayingenguye owayezothatha isigqibo.
Ngokunyaniseka, andikhange ndicaphuke ngenxa yoko andixelele kona, kuba bendisazi ukuba ingqina likulungele ukucinga njani. Kodwa bendisazi ukuba xa ndingakhawulezi ndimvuse, akhonto ilungileyo izakulandela.
Umama, sele eneminyaka engama-30 esebenza kule ntlangano, wayeqokelele iincwadi ezininzi kunye neemagazini apho abathanjiswa babhengeza ukuba bangabaprofeti bakaThixo kule mihla, udidi lukaHezekile (Iintlanga ziya kwazi ukuba ndinguYehova, Njani? iphepha 62). Kwakukho iziprofeto ezingezizo ezimalunga nonyaka ka-1975 (UBomi obuNaphakade kwinkululeko yaBantwana bakaThixo, iphepha 26 ukuya kwelama-31; Inyaniso ekhokelela kuBomi obuNaphakade, (ebizwa ngokuba yiBlue Bomb), iphepha 9 nele-95). Waye weva abanye abazalwana besithi "Abazalwana abaninzi bakholelwa ukuba isiphelo siyeza ngo-1975 kodwa ayikhange iqatshelwe liQumrhu Elilawulayo elixelwe kwangaphambili ngumbutho kwaye lagxininisa kakhulu kwisiphelo esiza ngo-1975". Ngoku bathi egameni leQumrhu Elilawulayo yayiyimpazamo yabazalwana ukukholelwa kuloo mhla. Ukongeza, zazikhona nezinye iimpapasho ezazisithi isiphelo siza kufika “kwinkulungwane yamashumi amabini” (Iintlanga ziya kwazi ukuba ndinguYehova, Njani? iphepha 216) kunye neemagazini ezifana IMboniselo eyayibizwa ngokuba "ngu-1914, isizukulwana esingazange sidlule" kunye nezinye.
Ezi ncwadi ndiziboleke kumama. Kodwa kancinci kancinci, bendibonisa umfazi wam "iiperile ezincinci" ukuba zithini Ukuqiqa Incwadi ithe ngo "Ungamchonga njani umprofeti wobuxoki", kwaye bayishiye njani eyona mpendulo inikwayo kwiDuteronomi 18:22.
Umfazi wam waqhubeka esiya kwiintlanganiso, kodwa mna ndandingayi. Kwenye yeentlanganiso wacela ukuthetha nabadala ukuze bandincede ndiphelise amathandabuzo endinawo. Wayecinga ukuba abadala bangayiphendula ngokwanelisayo yonke imibuzo yam, kodwa bendingazi ukuba ucele uncedo. Ngenye imini xa ndandiye kwintlanganiso, abadala ababini beza kum bacela ukuba ndihlale emva kwentlanganiso kuba bafuna ukuthetha nam. Ndavuma, nangona ndandingenazo iincwadi endandizibolekwe ngumama, kodwa ndandizimisele ukwenza nantoni na endinokuyenza ukuze umfazi wam alufumane uncedo lokwenene endandifuna ukulunikwa ngabadala. Ndiye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyirekhode intetho ethathe iiyure ezimbini ezinesiqingatha, endizimisele ukuyipapasha kwi I-Los Bereanos indawo. Kule “ntetho yobuhlobo yoncedo lothando” ndatyhila isiqingatha samathandabuzo am, ukuphatha kakubi impatho-gadalala yabantwana ngokwesondo, ukuba u-1914 awunasiseko seBhayibhile, sokuba ukuba u-1914 awukho ngo-1918 awukho, ungasathethi ke ngo-1919; ndaza ndatyhila indlela eziwela ngayo zonke ezi mfundiso ngenxa yowe-1914 ingeyonyani. Ndibaxelele endikufundileyo kwiincwadi zeJW.Org malunga neziprofeto ezingezizo kwaye basala nje ukuphendula kolo thandabuzo. Ngokuyintloko bazinikezele ekundihlaseleni, besithi ndizenza ngathi ndazi ngaphezu kweQumrhu Elilawulayo. Kwaye bandityhola ngokuba ndilixoki.
Kodwa akukho nto ibalulekileyo kum. Ndiyazi ukuba ngezinto abazithethileyo bazakundinceda ndibonise umfazi wam ukuba abantu abadala ekuthiwa ngootitshala abakwaziyo ukuyikhusela "inyani" ngokwenyani abazi ukuba bayayikhusela njani kwaphela. Ndade ndathi komnye wabo: “Ngaba awuthandabuzi ukuba u-1914 yimfundiso yokwenene?” Undiphendule ngo "hayi". Ndaze ndathi, “Kulungile, ndikholise.” Kwaye wathi, “Akunyanzelekanga ukuba ndikuqinisekise. Ukuba awukholelwa ukuba u-1914 uyinyani, sukushumayela, sukuthetha ngawo kwindawo leyo. ”
Inokwenzeka njani into yokuba ukuba u-1914 yimfundiso eyinyani, wena mdala, utitshala ofundisiweyo welizwi likaThixo, awuyikhuseli ekufeni ngeengxoxo zebhayibhile? Kutheni ungafuni ukundenza ndiqiniseke ukuba andilunganga? Okanye ngaba inyani ayinakuvela iphumelele xa kujongwa?
Kum, bekucacile ukuba aba “balusi” yayingengabo abo iNkosi uYesu yayithetha ngabo; abo, baneegusha ezikhuselweyo ezingama-99, bazimisele ukuya kukhangela imvu enye elahlekileyo, beshiya abayi-99 bodwa de bayifumane elahlekileyo.
Njengoko bendibeka zonke ezi zihloko kubo, ndiyazi ukuba yayingeloxesha lokuma ngokuqinileyo ngento endiyicinga. Ndabamamela kwaye ndaphika amaxesha endinokuma ngokuqinileyo, kodwa ngaphandle kokubanika izizathu zokundithumela kwikomiti egwebayo. Njengoko benditshilo, incoko ithathe iiyure ezimbini ezinesiqingatha, kodwa ndazama ukuhlala ndizolile ngalo lonke ixesha kwaye xa ndibuyela endlini yam ndaphinda ndathula kuba bendifumene ubungqina endibudinga ukuvusa unkosikazi wam. Kwaye, emva kokumxelela ngokwenzekileyo, ndambonisa ukurekhodwa kwentetho ukuze akwazi ukuyivavanya ngokwakhe. Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa, wavuma kum ukuba ucele abadala ukuba bathethe nam, kodwa ukuba ebengacingi ukuba abadala bazokuza ngaphandle kokuphendula imibuzo yam.
Ndithathe inyani yokuba inkosikazi yam izimisele ukuxoxa ngalo mbandela, ndambonisa iimpapasho endizifumene kwaye wayesele elwamkela ngakumbi olo lwazi. Ukususela ngalo mzuzu, saqala ukufunda kunye ngeyona nto ifundiswa yiBhayibhile kunye neevidiyo zomzalwana uEric Wilson.
Ukuvuka komfazi wam kwakukhawuleza kakhulu kunokwam, njengoko wayeqonda ubuxoki beQumrhu Elilawulayo kwaye kutheni bexoka.
Ndamangaliswa xa ngelinye ixesha wathi kum, "Asinakuba kumbutho ongenguye onqulo lwenene".
Khange ndilindele ukuba asonjululwe ngokuqinileyo ngolu hlobo kuye. Kodwa ayinakuba lula kangako. Bobabini kunye nam sinazo izalamane zethu ngaphakathi kwintlangano. Ngelo xesha usapho lwam lonke lwalusele luvule amehlo malunga nombutho. Oodadewethu ababini abancinci abasayi kwiintlanganiso. Abazali bam bayaqhubeka nokuya kwiintlanganiso zabahlobo babo abasebandleni, kodwa umama ngobulumko uzama ukwenza abanye abazalwana bavule amehlo. Kwaye abantakwethu abadala kunye neentsapho zabo abasayi kwiintlanganiso kwakhona.
Asinakunyamalala kwiintlanganiso ngaphandle kokuzama kuqala ukwenza ukuba abasebukhweni bavuse inyani, ke mna nenkosikazi yam sigqibe kwelokuba siqhubeke nokuya ezintlanganisweni de sikuphumeze oku.
Umfazi wam waqala ukukhulisa amathandabuzo nabazali bakhe malunga nokuhlukunyezwa kwabantwana kwaye wakhulisa amathandabuzo malunga neziprofeto zobuxoki kumntakwabo (Ndimele nditsho ukuba umkhwe wam wayengumdala, nangona okwangoku esusiwe, kwaye umlamu wam ungumdala -Bethelite, umdala kunye novulindlela othe ngxi) kwaye njengoko bekulindelwe, bala kwaphela ukubona ubungqina bento ethethwayo. Impendulo yabo iyafana nelinye iNgqina likaYehova elisoloko linika, oko kukuthi, "Singabantu abangafezekanga abanokwenza iimpazamo kwaye abathanjisiweyo ngabantu abenza iimpazamo."
Nangona mna nenkosikazi yam saqhubeka nokuya ezintlanganisweni, oku kwaba nzima ngakumbi, kuba incwadi yeSityhilelo yayifundwa, kwaye kwintlanganiso nganye kwakufuneka simamele iingcinga ezithathwa njengeziyinyani. Amagama anje ngo "kuyacaca", "ngokuqinisekileyo" kwaye "mhlawumbi" athathwa njengeziyinyani ezingenakuphikiswa, nangona kwakungekho bungqina baneleyo, njengomyalezo wesigwebo owawumelwe ngamatye esichotho, isiphambeko esipheleleyo. Ukufika kwethu ekhaya saqala ukuphanda ukuba ngaba iBhayibhile iyalixhasa eli bango.
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