Ukuvuka kwam emva kweminyaka engama-30 yenkohliso, Icandelo XNUMX: Ubuntwana bam kunye nokufikisa.

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NguFeliksi woMzantsi Merika. (Amagama atshintshiwe ukunqanda ukuziphindezela.)

Usapho lwam kunye nombutho

Ndakhulela kwindawo eyayisaziwa ngokuba “yinyaniso” ukususela oko abazali bam baqalisa ukufunda namaNgqina kaYehova xa ndandimalunga neminyaka emi-4 ubudala ngasekupheleni kweminyaka yoo-1980. Ngelo xesha, sasiyintsapho yabantu abathandathu, kuba sasingoobhuti abayi-6, i-4, i-8 kunye ne-6 iminyaka ngokulandelelana (ekugqibeleni saba ngabazalwane abasi-4 nangona omnye wasweleka eneenyanga ezimbini zobomi), kwaye ndikhumbula ngokucacileyo ukuba sihlangane iHolo yoBukumkani eyayimi kufutshane nekhaya lam. Kwaye kuba sasiphantsi kwezoqoqosho nanini na sisiya ezintlanganisweni sonke sasihamba kunye. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba kwakudingeka sihambe kwindawo eyingozi kunye neendawo ezixakekileyo ukuze sikwazi ukuya kwiintlanganiso zethu. Ukanti, asizange siphoswe ziintlanganiso, sihamba ngesantyalantyala semvula okanye sifuthise ubushushu obuziisentimitha ezingama-2 ehlotyeni. Ndiyikhumbula ngokucacileyo. Safika kuloo ntlanganiso simanzi tixi ngumbilo, kodwa sasisoloko sikho kwiintlanganiso.

Umama wenza inkqubela kwaye wabhaptizwa ngokukhawuleza, kwaye kungekudala baqalisa ukuba nguvulindlela othe ngxi xa babenemfuno yokufikelela ubuncinci be-90 ye-avareji yomsebenzi oxeliweyo ngenyanga okanye iiyure ezili-1,000 3 ngonyaka, oko kuthetha ukuba umama wachitha ixesha elininzi. ukushumayela kude nekhaya. Ke, bekukho amatyeli amaninzi xa washiya mna nabantakwethu abathathu ndivaleleke ndedwa kwisithuba esinamagumbi amabini, iholo kunye negumbi lokuhlambela iiyure ezininzi kuba kuya kufuneka ayokuphumeza ukuzibophelela kwakhe kuYehova.

Ngoku, ndicinga ukuba kwakungalunganga ngomama ukuba ashiye abantwana abayi-4 bodwa bezivalele, bevezwe kwiingozi ezininzi kwaye bengakwazi ukuphuma baye kucela uncedo. Nam ndiyaqonda. Kodwa yiloo nto umntu ofundisiweyo okhokelwa ngumbutho ngenxa "yongxamiseko lwamaxesha esiphila kuwo".

Malunga nomama, ndingatsho ukuba iminyaka emininzi wayenguvulindlela othe ngxi okhutheleyo ngazo zonke iindlela: egqabaza, eshumayela, kwaye eqhuba izifundo zeBhayibhile. Usapho lwam yayilusapho oluqhelekileyo lweminyaka yoo-1980, xa imfundo noqeqesho lwabantwana lwaluqhutywa ngumama; Kwaye eyam yayihlala inesimo esomeleleyo sokukhusela oko kwakubonakala kufanelekile, kwaye wayelandela ngokuzimisela oko kufundiswa yiBhayibhile. Yiloo nto ke, kumaxesha amaninzi, ekhokelele ekubeni abizelwe kwigumbi B leHolo yoBukumkani ukuze akhalinywe ngabantu abadala.

Nangona besithobekile, umama ebesoloko enceda xa naliphi na ilungu lebandla lifuna inkxaso yalo naluphi na uhlobo kwaye ikwayeso sizathu sokuba abizelwe kwigumbi B, ngokungawuhloniphi umyalelo wobunkokeli kwaye engalindelanga ukuba abantu abadala bathathe iintambo. . Ndikhumbula ngenye imini ukuba umzalwana wayekwimeko emaxongo kwaye umama wayeshumayela kufutshane nomzi womdala, kwafika kuye ukuba aye kwindlu yalomdala ayomazisa ngale meko. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba yayiyintsimbi yesi-2 xa wayinkqonkqoza endlwini yakhe kwaza kwaphendulwa ngumfazi womdala. Xa umama wacela inkosikazi ukuba ivunyelwe ukuba ithethe nomyeni wayo ngenxa yemeko yomnye umzalwana, impendulo yomfazi omdala yathi, “Buya mva dade, kuba umyeni wam uyeza ngelixesha, kwaye akafuni mntu ukumphazamisa. ”Andiqondi ukuba abelusi bokwenyani, ekufuneka bekhathalele umhlambi, bangabonakalisa umdla omncinci kwizimvu zabo, ngokuqinisekileyo.

Umama waba lixhegwazana elikhulu lombutho. Ngezo ntsuku, indawo yokujonga uqeqesho ngokulungiswa komzimba yayingakhange ijongelwe phantsi ngumbutho, kodwa yayithathwa njengeyendalo kwaye ukuya kuthi ga kwinqanaba elithile liyimfuneko. Ke, yayiqhelekile into yokuba umama asibethe. Ukuba omnye umzalwana okanye udade umxelele ukuba besileqa eHolweni, okanye ukuba besingaphandle kweHolo ngexesha lentlanganiso, okanye sityhale umntu singaqondanga, okanye ukuba nje siye saya komnye wabazalwana bam ukuba sithethe into, okanye sasiye sihleke ebudeni bentlanganiso, wayedla ngokusibamba iindlebe okanye asitsale iinwele okanye asise kwigumbi lokuhlambela kwiHolo yoBukumkani ukuze asibethe. Kwakungakhathali ukuba siphambi kwabahlobo, abantakwethu, okanye nabani na. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba xa sasifunda "Incwadi Yam Yamabali EBhayibhile", umama wayehlala nathi phantsi etafileni, abonise izandla zakhe etafileni, abeke nebhanti ecaleni kwakhe etafileni, naye. Ukuba siphendule kakubi okanye sihleka okanye asihoyanga, usibethe ezandleni zethu ngebhanti. Ubuhlanya.

Andinakuthi ityala lakho konke oku laliphelele entlanganweni, kodwa amaxesha ngamaxesha amanqaku ayephuma kwiMboniselo, uVukani! okanye imixholo evela kwiintetho zomzalwana eyayikhuthaza ukusetyenziswa kwe "ntonga" yoqeqesho, ukuba lowo ungamqeqeshiyo unyana wakhe akamthandi, njlnjl… kodwa ezo ntlobo zezinto ebezifundiswa ngumbutho abazali ngeloxesha.

Kwizihlandlo ezininzi abadala babelisebenzisa kakubi igunya labo. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba xa ndandimalunga neminyaka eli-12 ubudala, umama wam wandithuma ukuba ndichebe iinwele ngendlela, ngelo xesha, eyayibizwa ngokuba yi “shell cut” okanye “cut mushroom”. Ewe, kwintlanganiso yokuqala esaya kuyo, abadala bathatha umama baya naye kwigumbi B ukumxelela ukuba ukuba akayitshintshi inwele yam, ndingaphulukana nelungelo lokuba ngumlawuli wesandisi-lizwi, kuba ukucheba iinwele zam ngolo hlobo bekuyinto esefashonini, ngokomdala, kwaye kwakungafuneki ukuba sibe yinxalenye yehlabathi ekuzuzeni iifashoni zehlabathi. Nangona umama wayengacingi ukuba kusengqiqweni ngoba kwakungekho bungqina baloo ngxelo, wayediniwe kukukhalinyelwa amaxesha ngamaxesha, ke yena wazicheba iinwele zam zaba mfutshane kakhulu. Nam andizange ndivume, kodwa ndandineminyaka eli-12 ubudala. Yintoni enye endinokuyenza ngaphandle kokukhalaza ndicaphuke? Yeyiphi impazamo endiyenzileyo xa abadala bekhalimela umama?

Ewe, eyona nto yayihlazo yayikukuba kwiveki kamva lo nyana mdala, owayelingana nam, weza eHolweni enezinwele ezifanayo ezazinokubangela ukuba ndiphulukane namalungelo am. Ngokucacileyo, ukucheba iinwele kwakungasekho kwifashoni, kuba wayenokusebenzisa ukusikwa okunqwenelekayo. Akukho nto yenzekileyo kuye okanye kwilungelo lakhe lemakrofoni. Kuyacaca ukuba umdala walisebenzisa kakubi igunya lakhe. Olu hlobo lwento lwenzekile kwizihlandlo ezininzi. Kubonakala ngathi le nto ndiyithethileyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku zizinto ezingenamsebenzi, kodwa zibonisa inqanaba lolawulo abalusebenzisayo kubomi babucala nakwizigqibo zabazalwana.

Ubuntwana bam nobabantakwethu bujikeleza oko amangqina akubiza ngokuba "zizinto zokomoya" ezinje ngeentlanganiso nokushumayela. (Ngokuhamba kwexesha, njengokuba abahlobo bethu babekhula, ngamnye emva komnye, basuswa kubudlelane okanye bazishiya.) Ubomi bethu bonke babusekelwe entlanganisweni. Sikhule sisiva ukuba isiphelo sikufuphi kwikona; ukuba sele ijikile ikona; ukuba sele ifikile emnyango; kuba yayisele inkqonkqoza emnyango — isiphelo sasisoloko siza, ke kutheni sizokufundela ukuba isiphelo sisiza. Yile nto umama wayekholelwa kuyo.

Abakhuluwa bam abathathu kuphela abagqibe isikolo samabanga aphantsi. Xa udadewethu egqibileyo, waba nguvulindlela othe ngxi. Kwaye umninawa wam oneminyaka eli-13 ubudala waqalisa ukusebenza ukunceda usapho. Xa lafika ixesha lokuba ndigqibe isikolo samabanga aphantsi, umama wayengasaqinisekanga ngokuphila kula maxesha angxamisekileyo, ngoko ndaba ngowokuqala ukufunda kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. (Kwangelo xesha, abantakwethu abadala bagqiba kwelokuba baqale ukufunda yesibini nangona oko kubabiza imali eninzi ukuzama ukuyigqiba.) Ekuhambeni kwexesha, umama waba nabanye abantwana abayi-4 kwaye bakhuliswa ngendlela engafaniyo, ngaphandle kokudlula izohlwayo ezininzi, kodwa ngoxinzelelo olufanayo oluvela entlanganweni. Ndingabalisa izinto ezininzi ezenzekileyo ebandleni-ukungabikho kokusesikweni kunye nokusebenzisa gwenxa amandla- kodwa ndifuna ukuxelela enye into.

Umninawa wam wayesoloko eliNgqina likaYehova elithanda izinto zokomoya ngendlela awayeziphethe ngayo. Oku kwamkhokelela ekubeni esemncinci ukuba athathe inxaxheba kwiindibano, abelane ngamava, enze imiboniso kunye nodliwanondlebe. Ke, waba sisicaka solungiselelo esencinci i-18 (into engaqhelekanga, kuba kwafuneka ubengumzekelo kakhulu kwibandla eliza kubizwa nge-19 ubudala) kwaye uqhubeke nokuthatha uxanduva ebandleni kwaye wazizalisekisa.

Umninawa wam wayephethe indawo yeAccounting ebandleni, kwaye wayesazi ukuba kweli sebe kufuneka alumke kakhulu, ngoba nayiphina impazamo inokuba neziphumo kunye nokutolikwa gwenxa. Ewe, imiyalelo awayenayo yayikukuba qho kwiinyanga ezi-2 umdala owahlukileyo kufuneka ahlaziye iiakhawunti; Oko kukuthi, abadala kuye kufuneke bahambe bayokujonga ukuba yonke into iqhutywa ngendlela na ukuba kukho izinto zokuphucula, ingxelo inikwe umntu ophetheyo ngencwadi ebhaliweyo.

Iinyanga ezimbini zokuqala zidlulile kwaye akukho mdala ucelileyo ukuba ajonge iiakhawunti. Ukufika kwakhe kwiinyanga ezi-4, akukho mntu weza kuphonononga iiakhawunti. Ke, umntakwethu ubuze umdala ukuba bazokujonga kwakhona iiakhawunti kwaye umdala wathi, "Ewe". Kodwa ixesha lihambile kwaye akukho mntu uphonononge iiakhawunti, de kwaba lusuku lokufika kotyelelo loMveleli weSekethe.

Ngosuku olungaphambi kotyelelo umntakwethu wacelwa ukuba ahlole iiakhawunti. Umninawa wam wabaxelele ukuba akukho ngxaki kwaye wabanika ifolda apho waxela yonke into enxulumene neeakhawunti zeenyanga ezintandathu ezidlulileyo. Ngosuku lokuqala lotyelelo, umphathi wesekethe wacela ukuba athethe nomntakwethu ngasese kwaye wamxelela ukuba umsebenzi awenzayo umhle kakhulu, kodwa wathi xa abadala besenza izindululo zokuba izinto ziphuculwe, kufuneka abambelele kuzo ngokuthobeka. Umninawa wam akaqondanga ukuba ebethetha ngantoni, ngoko ke wambuza ukuba uthetha ngaliphi icebiso. Umphathi wesekethe uphendule wathi umntakwethu khange enze lutshintsho luye lwaphakanyiswa ngabadala ngokubhala kuphononongo abathathu abalwenzileyo (abadala zange baxoke nje ngemini yokuba xa benze ungenelelo, bakwazimisela ukwenza ingcebiso ezingezizo zokuba yam. ubhuti ebengazi malunga, kuba abenzwanga xa kufanelekile, bezama ukutyhola umntakwethu ngayo nayiphi na impazamo eyenzekileyo).

Umninawa wamcacisela uMbonisi weSekethe ukuba abadala bamcelile ukuba ahlole iiakhawunti kusuku olungaphambi kotyelelo lakhe, kwaye, ukuba uphononongo lwalwenziwe xa bekufanele ukuba lwenziwe, ngewayelwenzile olo tshintsho, kodwa oko kwakungekho icala. Umphathi wesekethe wamxelela ukuba uza kuxelela abadala oku kwaye wabuza umntakwethu ukuba ikhona ingxaki ajongene nabadala malunga nophononongo. Umntakwethu uphendule wathi akanangxaki ngale nto. Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa, uMbonisi ojikelezayo uxelele umninawa wam ukuba uthethile nabadala kwaye bavuma ukuba abanalo ixesha lokujonga iiakhawunti, kwaye ukuba inyani le ithethwayo ngumnakwethu yinyani. Ke, bekunganyanzelekanga ukuba umntakwethu ajongane nabadala.

Kwinyanga emva koku, kwenziwa uhlengahlengiso kwakhona ebandleni kwaye umninawa wam ngequbuliso washiya amalungelo amaninzi ngaxeshanye njengeakhawunti, ucwangciso lokushumayela, ukuphatha izixhobo zesandi, kunye nokuthetha rhoqo eqongeni, ukuya kulawula umbhobho nje. Ngeli xesha, sonke sasizibuza ngento eyenzekileyo.

Ngenye imini sahamba nomninawa wam sayotya kwikhaya labanye abahlobo. Kwaye emva koko bamxelela ukuba kufuneka bathethe naye, kwaye asazi ukuba yayingantoni. Kodwa ndiyikhumbula kakuhle loo ntetho.

Bathi: “Uyazi ukuba sikuthanda kakhulu, kwaye ke kunyanzelekile ukuba sikuxelele. Kwinyanga ephelileyo kunye nenkosikazi yam, sasisekungeneni kweHolo yoBukumkani kwaye samamela abadala ababini (wasixelela amagama, ngokuqondakalayo yayingabadala ababonakala kwiingxelo zokuphononongwa kwiiakhawunti ezingafakwanga) ababethetha malunga nento abanokuyenza nawe. Asazi ukuba ngasiphi na isizathu, kodwa bathi kufuneka baqale, kancinci kancinci, ukuba bakususe kumalungelo ebandla, ukuze uqale uzive ufuduselwa bodwa kwaye ulilolo, emva koko bakususe kwimisebenzi yolungiselelo. . Asazi ukuba kutheni besitsho kodwa kubonakala ngathi ayisiyondlela yokujongana nabani na le. Ukuba wenze into engalunganga, kuya kufuneka bakubize kwaye bakuxelele ukuba kutheni bezokuthatha amalungelo akho. Oku akubonakali kuthi ukuba yindlela yobuKristu yokwenza izinto ”.

Ke umntakwethu wabaxelela ngemeko eyayenzeke ngeakhawunti.

Ngokwam, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba abayithandi into yokuba umntakwethu azikhusele ngokuziphatha kakubi kwabadala. Impazamo yayiyeyabo, kwaye endaweni yokuvuma ngokuthobeka impazamo, benza iyelenqe lokususa umntu owenza loo nto ebefanele ukuba uyenzile. Ngaba abadala balandela umzekelo weNkosi uYesu? Ngokudabukisayo, hayi.

Ndicebise ukuba umntakwethu athethe nomphathi wesekethe, kuba wayeyazi le meko, ukuze kuthi lakufika ixesha, umzalwana wam asazi isizathu sokuba kususwe isicaka solungiselelo. Umninawa wam uthethile ne-Overseer kwaye wayixelela malunga nencoko yabadala kunye nabazalwana abayivayo. Umbonisi wamxelela ukuba akakholelwa ukuba abadala benze ngaloo ndlela, kodwa ukuba uyaphapha ukubona ukuba kwenzeke ntoni kutyelelo olulandelayo ebandleni. Ndivuya kuba ndixelele uMbonisi ngale meko, umntakwethu uyaqhubeka nokuthobela izabelo ezimbalwa abamnike zona.

Njengoko ixesha lihamba, bamabela ukuba anikele iintetho ezimbalwa; babengamfowuneli kangangezihlandlo ezininzi ukuze agqabaze kwiintlanganiso; kwaye uxinzelelo olungakumbi lwabekwa kuye. Ngokomzekelo, babemgxeka kuba abadala babengamboni xa eshumayela ngeMigqibelo. (Umntakwethu wayesebenza nam, kodwa wayesiya kushumayela emva kwemini phakathi evekini. Kodwa ngeMigqibelo, kwakungekho lula ukuphuma siye kushumayela, kuba uninzi lwabathengi bethu babesekhaya ngeMigqibelo, kwaye babesithi banokusiqasha NgeMigqibelo.) Abadala babeshumayela kuloo ntsimi ngeMigqibelo nangeeCawa, kodwa evekini babebonakala ngokungabikho kwabo. Ke, ekubeni bengambonanga umntakwethu ngeMigqibelo kumsebenzi wokushumayela, kwaye nangona ingxelo yakhe yenyanga isoloko ingaphezulu kwamanani aphindwe kabini, kwaye nangona ebacacisela imeko, babengenangqondo.

Ngapha koko, kwiinyanga ezimbini phambi kotyelelo loMveleli, umntakwethu wafumana ingozi ngelixa edlala ibhola, wabetha ngentloko eludongeni waqhekeza ukakayi. Kwakhona, wabethwa sistroke esidale inkumbulo yokwexeshana, ukufotofiya, kunye nemigraines. Kwinyanga enye engayi ezintlanganisweni,… inyanga apho abadala babenolwazi ngale meko (kuba umama wayeqinisekisa ukuba uxelela abadala, nganye nganye, ngokwenzekileyo), kodwa akukho namnye kubo owama undwendwele, kungekho esibhedlele okanye ekhaya. Abazange bamtsalele umnxeba okanye babhalele ikhadi okanye ileta yokukhuthaza. Abazange babe nomdla kuye. Xa wayekwazi ukuya kwiintlanganiso kwakhona, intloko ebuhlungu kunye nefotophobia zambangela ukuba azishiye iintlanganiso ngaphambi kokuba ziphele.

Utyelelo loMveleli Wesiphaluka lwafika kwaye abadala bacela ukususwa njengesicaka solungiselelo somntakwethu. Abadala ababini (kwayena lo wayemenzele iyelenqe) kunye noMveleli badibana ukumxelela ukuba akasayi kuba sisicaka solungiselelo. Umntakwethu wayengasiqondi isizathu. Baye bamchazela kuphela ukuba kungenxa yokuba engenalo "inyani yokuthetha", kuba wayengaphumi aye kushumayela ngeMigqibelo, kwaye kuba wayengayi qho kwiintlanganiso. Wayengumzekelo mni ukuba akhwele eqongeni axelele abazalwana ukuba baphume baye kushumayela kwaye baye kwiintlanganiso ukuba akenzi njalo? Bambuza ukuba athethe phandle xa bengathethi phandle. Kukuthini ukungafihlisi abanokukutsho eqongeni ukuba kufuneka bathobeke kwaye baziqonde iimpazamo zabo ukuba abazenzanga ngokwabo? Bangathetha njani ngothando kubazalwana xa bengalubonakalisi? Bangalikhuthaza njani ibandla ukuba lilunge xa ​​kungenjalo? Bangabaxelela njani abanye ukuba kufuneka sibe nengqiqo xa bengenguye? Kwavakala ngathi yintlekisa.

Waphinda wabacacisela ukuba xa bengamboni kushunyayelwa ngeMigqibelo, kungenxa yokuba uyasebenza, kodwa ushumayela ngeveki emva kwemini. Kwaye, akazange akwazi ukuya ezintlanganisweni rhoqo ngenxa yengozi ababezazi ngayo. Nawuphi na umntu onengqiqo uya kuyiqonda le meko. Ngaphandle koku, uMveleli weSekethe, owayekhona kunye nabo, wayesazi kakuhle ukuba esi yayingeso sizathu sokuba asuswe. Wothuka umntakwethu, yi-CO ebaxhasa abadala kwaye yacebisa ukuba kususwe. Ngosuku olulandelayo, u-CO wacela ukuphuma ayokushumayela nomntakwethu kwaye wachaza ukuba uyasazi esona sizathu sokuba kutheni abadala bancomela ukususwa, okwenzekileyo kutyelelo oludlulileyo, kodwa ngekhe aphikisane nabadala. (Ngokwam ndicinga ukuba akenzanga nto kuba engafuni. Wayenegunya. Uxelele umntakwethu ukuba ayithathe njengamava, kwaye ukuba xa sele emdala, uyakukhumbula into eyenziwa ngabadala kuye, kwaye uya kuhleka, kwaye njengoko sihlala sisitsho, "Shiya izinto ezandleni zikaYehova."

Ngosuku lwesibhengezo, bonke abazalwana (ibandla liphela ngaphandle kwabadala) ababesazi kakuhle ukuba imeko yayimbi kangakanani na, beza kumntakwethu ukuba bamxelele ukuba azole, ukuba bayayazi eyona nto yenzekileyo. Eso senzo sothando sabazalwana samshiya nesazela esicocekileyo ukuba konke okwenzekileyo kungenxa yokwenza kwakhe oko kulungileyo emehlweni kaYehova.

Ngokwam, ndacaphuka ndakufumanisa ngale nto — indlela abadala, "abelusi abanothando abasoloko befuna okona kulungileyo emhlambini", abanokuzenza njani ezi zinto kwaye bangahlwaywa? Angathini umveleli ohambahambayo, onoxanduva lokubona ukuba abadala benza into elungileyo, kwaye eyazi imeko, angenzi nto ukukhusela ilungisa, ukwenza ubulungisa bukaYehova boyise, ukubonisa wonke umntu ukuba akukho mntu ungaphezulu kukaThixo imilinganiselo yobulungisa? Ingenzeka njani le nto phakathi 'kwabantu bakaThixo'? Eyona nto imbi kakhulu kukuba xa abanye abantu abavela kwamanye amabandla befumanisa ukuba umntakwethu akasasisicaka solungiselelo kwaye wabuza kwabadala, baxelela abanye ukuba kungenxa yokuba wayedlala imidlalo yevidiyo enogonyamelo, abanye besithi kungenxa yomninawa wam Wayelikhoboka lemifanekiso engamanyala kwaye umntakwethu walala "uncedo ababemnike lona". Ubuxoki bobuxoki buqulunqwe ngabadala! Xa sisazi ukuba ukususwa kufanele ukuba kuphathwe ngokuyimfihlo. Kuthekani ngothando nokunamathela kwiinkqubo zentlangano ekwakumele ukuba ziboniswe ngabadala? Le yayiyinto eyaphembelela kakhulu umbono wam malunga nombutho.